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Depressed | Phan {EDITING}

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Parts 36
Time 1h 46m

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"Phil... I'm depressed"

"Oh my god, me too! I get so down in the dumps sometimes it's ju-"

"No. Phil. I have depression"

"Oh."
~
triggers:
             -self harm (cutting)
             -depression + depressing thoughts
             -suicidal thoughts + suicide
             -gay slurs + other derogatory words
             -abuse
             -alcohol addiction
             -rape
             -murder
~
#144 in Fanfiction
~
completed - 25/9/16All Rights Reserved

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