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Forever Enigmatic

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Reads 244,601
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Parts 36
Time 4h 14m

"Distracting myself is the only way I can survive." 

Sierra Jenkins didn't think she'd escape the darkness unharmed, but there she was walking into The Gain trying to live a normal life. Just when she thinks everything is too good to be true, she's slapped in the face with an increase in her rent that plummets her back into the depths of darkness. Working double shifts, pulling all-nighters, and working out to escape, she loses herself trying to make ends meet. Her body takes hit after hit as she pushes her limits, but she masks it all with a deceiving smile. 

But Kyle sees right through it. He knows what it's like to suffer in silence and he doesn't want to see the only trainee that sticks around slowly deteriorate herself. 

Anxiety-ridden, emotional, and draining, the real life struggle of a college student trying to survive.

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It Doesn't Even Matter

Max is struggling, plain and simple. After dropping out of school two years ago to help his mom with the bills and losing his best friend, he's just kind of shut things out. His life has been in pure survival mode. Work, pay bills, survive. But things only getting more complicated when he's ripped away from everything he's ever known. His mom, never the most put together woman has an affair with her married boss and gets pregnant. Now she's decided to move them both to Beverly Hills and into his place! With new step siblings that hate him before they've even met and a man that thinks he can just jump in and be his father, Max has had just about enough of everything. On top of all that he's starting up school again, and with these new fancy rich kids, Max feels even more suffocated and out of place then he did before. Will Max figure out his place or fall farther and farther into the background suffocating?