BeckytheRat

Life is a fever dream and it's turning into a nightmare.

BeckytheRat

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I'm in love with him and he's in love with me. But the world is cruel to us and says that it just isn't mean't to be, leaving us both heart broken and over life. I see no other option for us both other than death. My defeated and tired heart says yes and yearns for death, but my head says no and to carry on and suffer through. I feel nothing on good days, but I mostly just feel like shit. Looking for distractions in the wrong places I find people who just care about their sexual desires and just want to die more. I know he's suffering more than me. I want to help him and say screw it, but his work keeps him far too busy and away from time for himself, making him depressed and with nothing good to come back to anymore. I truly feel we are meant to be together but outside forces make it almost impossible. I extremely hate that I am out here typing such sappy and cringy "poetic" driven type words on this god forsaken app; but I'm at such a low point right now that I don't even care anymore. I don't even care if anyone does or does not see this. I'm 18 years old, I don't need to care anymore. I need to cope. I love you Rik. Ricardo my real one true love and absolute best friend. I'm glad you will never read this since it's so damn cringy... I hope one day we may be together again. I hope one day I can hopefully not come back here and laugh at this.. not because I've moved on, if I ever can, but because it's so awful, and not be embarrassed by it. I love you and I will never forget what we had. You were the greatest thing to have ever happened to me. I hope this letter to myself never comes back to bite me. This world is hard and life is tragic and I hate it all. You're the light in my life and I will never let you go. You have lifted me up like no other, you made my world worth living. I wish the world was kinder to us and we really were able to get married and have all of those seven kids that all have your beautiful black curly hair... that would have been wonderful<3

BeckytheRat

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@Chara-Neutral STOP IT IT WAS 2 AM AND I WAS SO TIRED ITS NOT MY FAULT FOR BEING SO CRINGE AND I REFUSE TO DELETE SHIT
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Chara-Neutral

@BeckytheRat Interesting....I see....
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APersonAndItsCursed

hey becky i dont know if you remember me but back then when danplan was still a thing I believe we met in one of the smut books. there was another person their username is ahstephen and you two used to flirt all the time so I ended it up writing about it lol. anyways i was cringy back then so i want to apologize personally. i dont even know if you still have or use this app i dont. this app cringy asf lol. anyways have a good day

BeckytheRat

@APersonAndItsCursed oh yeah I remember- that was a long time ago lol.
            Crazy times. Anyway you're totally fine, I got a  kick out of it. Was hella cringy but that's what makes it fun I guess ahaha. You have a good day too<3
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BeckytheRat

Bruh It's literally only been a few months since I've looked here and oml wtf was wrong with me and all of you. So glad I freaking grew up FAST- Cause this shits embarrassing 
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cupcakeh0es

@BeckytheRat  don't remember  following you and honestly  i ain't got no idea but like
            Want some lemon honey tea?
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BeckytheRat

I'm wet and horny♡
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Aaaaaaaannndd borderline sleepy >:(
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Oh! Heres an idea~♡
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Why dont one of you cum over~
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Aaaannndd knock my up while I'm asleep♡

BeckytheRat

@Chara-Neutral ITS NOT MY FAULT NOOOOOO
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Chara-Neutral

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@BeckytheRat .....WHAT THE FUCK GIRL
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BeckytheRat

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