My pride is bruised, my spirits, down. We had a debate today and I didn't make it to the next round and hence I can't make it to the finals.
So much was rooting on this debate. I wanted to make my department proud, I wanted to bring glory to us! But now, I don't even know how to face anyone, I feel like I've failed.
It's sad when you're the best of the best in secondary school and now you get out here and you're just a burnt out kid and there's really nothing special about you.
Now here I am sitting and wondering if I'm actually good at anything and I want to sit and cry and delete myself from the world but that's not gonna happen so, tonight, we get another chapter!