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Hey guys! Sorry for my lack of responses. I'm experiencing a bit of depression burnout. I'll try my best to get responses out but rn I'm kinda at a middle ground. </3

Wattpad is so damn messy, I've got like 101 dms open and like 15 notifs per second and Im out here with 50+ tabs open like, "IM MISSING A ROLEPLAY, I KNOW I AM BUT WHERE— WHICH?!" and then all the rps that get buried become victims of my poor object permanence until I randomly remember them one random sunday morning a month from now and it's too awkward to go, "Heyyyy, I actually literally forgot you existed, haha. Can I still respond to this?"
          
          I'm so sorry I can't function like a normal person, lmfao. This is my deep dark secret. I don't ghost, I just got adhd and vyvanse just ain't doin it anymore.
          
          (Aka, if I've forgotten you just please forgive me, I'm still trying to figure out which dms I have and haven't responded to and there's... too many.)

Pov: You're me trying to decide if I can respond to the few people waiting for my replies but its 3am and I'm pretty sure the last response I wrote a minute ago spiraled off topic twelve times and is barely legible so I refrain.
          
          If I haven't replied to you tonight, you will be my first priority tomorrow! <3

Sorry for not responding at all today, I had some extra stuff to do workwise which made it impossible for me to respond. I've had a bunch of extra work shoved onto my plate and extra hours so :') but I'll try to respond now and later. Tomorrow my schedule should be better too.

IM ALIVE!! I'll be responding to rps today <3

Hey guys sorry for not responding to any rps today. I have a migraine that's been pretty killer and I'm waiting for it to cool down, I just wanted to give a heads up though. 
          
          Still generally tired from my new meds so once my body adjusts (should take a weekish), I'll be back to my usual response times and amounts folks, thanks for being patient.

Due to some unfortunate news provided to me by the hospital last night, I will likely be gone(not replying what so ever) up until the 28th. 
          
          We originally suspected I had blood clots in my lungs from being on testosterone, though we figured out the hard way that that isn't the case. Anyways, yesterday I spent most of my time in the ER, undergoing lung scans and xrays. (Which was honestly really crazy, like they first had me breathe in this radioactive tracer gas, then they gave me an injection of radiation so they could see if blood was properly getting to my lungs. It was kind of scary, truthfully.) 
          
          I'm going to be going through a lot of tests following the next few days so we can try and figure out what's wrong with my chest and breathing. Unfortunately, this will make it extremely hard and exhausting for me to reply to roleplays. If I have time, I'll try my hardest to respond but unfortunately, once again, its very unlikely. Just yesterday, I only had two tests and I was exhausted, on the floor out of it so it'll be exceptionally, exceptionally hard.
          
          I just want to first apologize to all the people I'm roleplaying with right now and secondly, I promise I'm not trying to abandon our rps. I very much love each and everyone I have going right now. 
          
          The 28th is a rough guesstimate but hopefully it shouldn't take too long. On the bright note, I think the lung scan ruled out cancer?... I hope. (All jokes, I highly doubt it's cancer.)
          
          Anyways, if anyone is upset over this or angry at me for any reason and wants proof of some sort of my hospital visit, please feel free to dm me where I'll provide my hospital wrist band and a few other pictures. Of course, I don't know why anyone would be upset with me or want proof but it is what it is and I'm not trying to hide anything.
          
          If you've made it this far into the message, I just want all of you to know that I appreciate and love you and can't wait for when I'm in a better physical position to respond & continue rps. <3

Gonna be on & off today like I've been for the past few days but a bit more because I have a lot of medical appointments to attend. I'll probably have a few more days like this leading up to the 8th of December due to my medical issues but I'll still try my best to respond. Apologies in advance <3

Finally out of my dry spot, I've got five characters currently in the making along with my previously published three. I've been primarily focusing on adding more fantasy based characters to my book!
          
          My published ones consist of a gangster gone dominatrix,
          a friends to lovers,
          and an apocalypse oc.
          
          The following five you guys can expect (as long as they aren't scrapped)
          will be something along the lines of a monster hunter, an immortal, a corrupt king along with a 'hero'. I also have a teacher oc coming along but I'm having a lot of mixed thoughts with him.
          
          If I make a teacher oc, he'd be a teacher x teacher oc most likely. If he were to be a teacher x student oc, it'd be involving college/university. The reason I'm struggling with this character is due to laws of consent. Realistically speaking, a student and a teacher dating, no matter the age would be illegal due to the power imbalance. Should I allow a student x teacher college/university thing or just keep him teacher x teacher?
          
          Advice is appreciated <3
          
          I've also finally gotten around to re-publishing the two child ocs I have in my other book for non-mlm rps (wlws, wlm and non-romantic rps.) So things are slowly coming along.

Responding today when I get the chance, everything has smoothed out and I'm free again! <3