Mmmh

I deleted many but I kept few memories with you. They are still there, hidden away in my gallery. So accessible. Yet I'm scared to even look at them. It's been over 5 months. Please. Leave me alone. Please. 

Sometimes I just wanna be hugged to sleep 

I got rid of most of the things and pictures that reminded me of you and our time together. I'm getting stronger, I'm getting over it. I barely remember most of the memories and I gotta thank my goldfish memory for that. I can get rid of everything but why can't it forget these music which you showed me once? 

Why do memories hurt so much ? 

I hate Januaries with my whole soul and being

Yo girly fell in love and out of it in past months. Ended it just the other day so lets hope it brings back the urge to write. Hopefully something devastating.

What was your highlight of the year? A good one ofc? 
          
          For me... I fell in love. 

Whole day yesterday I spent my time thinking about you Jonghyun. Trauma anniversary is really smth. Since it's holidays I don't really keep track of the dates but from the moment I woke up till I slept I knew smth was wrong and lacking. Smth unexplainable. 
          
          I hope you know you are dearly missed. Thank you for helping me through a lot of things. You really are an inspiration. Love you Jjong. You are still with me. 

I really. Really. Hate talking about feelings. 

Do you ever get sad Bcs someone unfollowed you? (You kinda liked them)