23/10/14 ❤️

I'm stronger than the demons in my mind, I'll beat them. No I'm probably not. Yes I am. No I'm not. Oh fuck my life.

I miss my twinsister.. love you forever, I hope you have a great life in heaven.. know that I miss you so much. Everyday.. It's 15 years ago, but it still hurts me so much.. The pain will always stay. Even I didn't knew you at all, bc you died after 3 days living, a part of me is gone.. you're gone.. I will never be 100% myself, bc you aren't here. You are the part I miss. You are the one I really need now and I'm crying, bc I want you to be here with me. I hope that you are proud on me and I hope you have a nice life in heaven. I wish I could show you my friends etc. I wish you could talk to me and would say that you are proud on me.. I hope that I make you proud. I will never forget you.. You will always be here in my heart.. I love you ❤

Why isn't she here in my place? I want her to have a life. She would make my parents proud

So many questions.. There will never be an answer.. I hate it that I can't ask her.