Ayano Aishi

ｉ ｃａｎ'ｔ ｆｅｅｌ ａｎｙｔｈｉｎｇ.
ғor aѕ long aѕ ι can reмeмвer, ι нaven'т вeen aвle тo ғeel eмoтιonѕ. ι preтend тo вe norмal wнen ι'м aroυnd oтнer people, вυт on тнe ιnѕιde, ι ғeel noтнιng. ιт'ѕ noт aѕ вad aѕ ιт мay ѕoυnd. ι ĸnow тнaт ι'м вroĸen, вυт ι don'т care. тнιѕ ιѕ norмal ғor мe.

вυт everyтнιng cнanged wнen ι мeт нιм...
ＭＹ ＳＥＮＰＡＩ

ғor тнe ғιrѕт тιмe, ι ғelт ѕoмeтнιng. 
ａ ｓｔｒｏｎｇ ｄｅｓｉｒｅ. 
ａ ｌｏｎｇｉｎｇ. 
ａ ｙｅａｒｎｉｎｇ. 
ａ ｃｒａｖｉｎｇ.

now ι ғιnally υnderѕтand wнaт ιт мeanѕ тo вe нυмan. тo вe alιve. ι'м addιcтed тo тнe way нe мaĸeѕ мe ғeel. ι don'т care aвoυт anyтнιng elѕe.

нe ιѕ ｅｖｅｒｙｔｈｉｎｇ тo мe.

and now, ѕoмeone ιѕ тryιng тo тaĸe нιм ғroм мe.

ѕнe wanтѕ нιм, вυт noт ιn тнe ѕaмe way тнaт ι wanт нιм. ѕнe coυld never apprecιaтe нιм тнe way ι do. ѕнe doeѕn'т deѕerve нιм. нe вelongѕ тo мe alone.

ѕнe нaѕ тaυgнт мe a new eмoтιon...ＲＡＧＥ.

ι wanт тo ｓｔｏｐ нer.

ι wanт тo ｈｕｒｔ нer.

ι wanт тo ＫＩＬＬ нer.

тнere ιѕ ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ ι won'т do ғor ѕenpaι. ι won'т leт ａｎｙｏｎｅ coмe вeтween υѕ.

ι don'т care wнaт ι нave тo do. ι don'т care wнo ι нave тo нυrт.

ι don'т care wнoѕe ｂｌｏｏｄ ι нave тo ｓｐｉｌｌ.

ι won'т leт ＡＮＹＯＮＥ тaĸe нιм ғroм мe.

ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ elѕe мaттerѕ. ｎｏ ｏｎｅ elѕe мaттerѕ.

ѕenpaι ｗｉｌｌвe ｍｉｎｅ.

ｈｅ ｄｏｅｓｎ'ｔ ｈａｖｅ ａ ｃｈｏｉｃｅ.

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