charmsrouge

╱   seeing  sonicrpc  rise  from  the  ashes  is  truly  an  amazing  feeling 
          	
          	gonna  try  my  hand  at  convincing  a  friend  to  make  sonic   ..

drkages

"keep your hands to yourself, / bat /. don't test my patience right now" the hedgehog hisses, moving the green emerald around from the bat's reach. "i am not in the mood for your shenanigans."

drkages

@charmsrouge  "no. now, quit acting like a child wanting candy" shadow hisses, taking a step back. "go find your own to mess with."
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charmsrouge

@drkages   ..
            
            ❝   come  on   ,   can   't   i  just  get  one  look  at  it   .ᐣ   ❞   rouge  asked   ,   eyeing  the  shiny  emerald  from  the  hedgehogs  hands   .   ❝   don   't   be  such  a  sour  hedgehog   .ᐟ   ❞
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charmsrouge

⧸   cc-bae  remains  my  favourite  guys  ong   ‼️   : heart_eyes :

charmsrouge

@snowstylings   ,
            
            ⧸   I  SWEAR  I  AM   ,   I  WOULD  NEVER  CHEAT  ON  YOU  FR  BAE   /lh
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snowstylings

/ DOESN’T SOUND LIKE IT?! S M H /lh
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charmsrouge

@snowstylings   ,
            
            ⧸   I  AM  BAE   ,,   I   'M   LOYAL  TO  YOU  TOO  I  PROMISE   /lh
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charmsrouge

⧸   sonic-rpc          come           out           of           hiding           giggles

charmsrouge

@webbedroids   ,
            
            ⧸   ANOTHER  REASON  WHY  YOU   'RE   MY  FAVORITE  CC-BAE   :cat_heart_eyes:
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rsedzmbes

@resistancerebels  /. omg pookie :hand_over_mouth: i will totally make an sonic acc for you
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charmsrouge

⧸         may          also           make           shadow           later
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charmsrouge

/   so   . .   it  happened   .   officially   .
          
          i   'm   not  in  the  best  mindset  right  now   ,,   if  anything  my  heart  aches  and  everything  hurts   .   i   'm   taking  a  day  or  two  break  from  replying  to  /anything/  on  any  accs   .   i   'm   only  going  to  be  sending  out  replies  to  one  new  close  friend  of  mine  since  i   'm   invested  in  a  plot   :heart_eyes:   (   you  know  who  you  are   <3    . . .   i  hope-   )   .   
          
          i   've   never  felt  as  bad  as  i  do  now   ,,   so  uh   . . .   bear  with  me   —   and  i   'm   sorry  for  the  delay   .
          
          marie   's   looking  after  me  to  make  sure  i  don   't   do  anything  stupid  or  drastic  and  i   've   been  put  on  'watch'   in  general   .   just  to  make  sure  i  don   't   do  something  that  could  get  me  in  danger  or  trouble   .
          
          i   'm   off  discord  as  well  for  the  night   —   only  answering  dms  on  there   .   so  if  you  need  to  reach  me   ,,   that   's   where  to  go   .   or  my  main  acc   .   i   'm   on  and  off  there   .
          
          i  just   . . .   it  hurts   ,   losing  her   ,   that  is   .   i  need  time  to  get  my  head  under  control   ,   my  own  thoughts  and  all   .   i  need  to  accept  the  fact  she   's   gone  and  that  i  may  never  get  my  fp  back   .   my  bpd   &&   schizophrenia  are  going  haywire  and  yelling  at  me  so  loudly  that  it   's   hard  to  concentrate   .   so   . .   y   'know   .   i  just  need  to  clear  my  head  and  grieve  as  i   'm   going  through  the  five  stages  of  grief  rn  because  of  this   —   gotta  love  bpd   :skull:
          
          so   . . .   yeah   .   apologies  for  delays  and  for  a  lot  of  things  in  general   .   thanks  for  bearing  with  me   ,   though   . .

charmsrouge

「   ⌗   @rizzalante   」
            
            /   OKAY  CARLY  IS  AN  EXCEPTION  TOO  BECAUSE  I  LOVE  HER  TOO  BUT  THE  MENTION  IN  THIS  POST  WAS  REFERRING  TO  YOU   ,,   I  PROMISE-   </3   /gen
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charmsrouge

「   ⌗   @rizzalante   」
             
            /   WAIT  NO   ,,   I  DON   'T   WANNA  MAKE  YOU  CRY   </3   THAT   'S   THE  LAST  THING  I  WANT  FR   </3   
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charmsrouge

「   ⌗   @rizzalante   」
            
            /   HELP  HAJSBDKE
            yes  i   'm   talking  about  you   ,   dummy   /lh
            although   . . .   wondering  what  would   've   happened  if  i  lied  and  said  it   's   not   :face_with_hand_over_mouth:
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charmsrouge

/   she   's   gone   .
          
          she   's   gone  for  good   .
          
          i  lost  her   .
          
          i  lost  my  fp  and  the  one  i  loved  the  most   .
          
          it   's   official   .   this  is  real   .   this  is  real  and  i  can   't   do  anything  about  it   .   i  can   't   beg  her  to  stay   ,   i  can   't   ,   i  can   't   i  can   't   ,   no  matter  how  much  i  want  to   .
          
          i  want  to  ask  her  to  come  back   ,   that  i  need  her   -   i   'll   always  need  her   .   but  i  can   't   .   that   's   not  fair  to  her   .   i  can   't   .   i  have  to  let  her  go   .   but  i  don   't   want  to   .   i  don   't   want  to   . . .
          
          as  if  everything  didn   't   remind  me  of  her  before   . . .   but  it   's   official  now   .
          
          i  lost  the  one  person  who  gave  me  a  bit  of  happiness  and  light  even  in  my  darkest  times   .   she   's   gone   .   she   's   gone  and  she   's   not  coming  back   .

charmsrouge

maybe  it  was  a  bad  idea  getting  attached  after  all   . . .
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charmsrouge

i  lost  my  person   .   i  just   . . .   i  just  lost  the  one  i  loved  the  most   .   i  lost  her   .   i  lost  her  and  now  i   'm   alone  again   .
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charmsrouge

i   'm   sorry  for  venting  here  but  it   's   the  only  acc  none  of  hers  follow  me  on   
            
            and  i  just
            
            i  need  somewhere  to  go
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charmsrouge

/   important   .   please  read. 
          
          
          i  will  be  taking  a  step  back  from  all  of  my  accounts   .
          
          long  story  short   ;   yesterday  i  had  to  say  goodbye  to  someone  who  was  one  of  the  two  most  important  people  to  me   &&   it   's   broken  me  more  than  i  thought   .   especially  considering  i  had  attached  myself  to  her   &&   she  became  my  fp  thanks  to  my  bpd   .   this  has  affected  me  more  than  i  thought  possible  or  that  it  would   —   like  i   'm   not  taking  it  well  at  all   .
          
          saying  goodbye  to  her  has  kind  of  sent  me  into  a  whirl  and  because  of  this  my  bpd  splitting  episode  is  getting  worse   —   i  /refuse/  to  accidentally  make  /anyone/  i  care  about  take  the  brunt  of  it   .   therefore   ,,   my  activity  will  lessen   .
          
          replies  on  all  accs  will  continue  to  come  to  my  closer   friends   &&   best  friends   -   and  replies  will  come  regularly  as  well  but  at  a  much  slower  rate  than  what  they  normally  would  be  at   ,,   so  please  don   't   feel  like  i   'm   ignoring  you   !!   i  will  get  to  replies  soon   .   i  just   . . .   have  to  cope  with  losing  my  fp   .
          
          if  you  wanna  or  needa  reach  me   ,,   head  to  my  main  acc   ,,   @Dekuisms   &&   drop  something  on  my  message  board  if  needed  or  pm  me   .   i   'll   be  lurking  there   .
          
          i  hope  you  guys  understand   .   with  love   ,,   jinx   .

G3TJ1NXED-

here   's   a  shortcut  to  my  main   &&   admin  acc
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