holy crap. It's been almost four months since I've done something on here
just doing this so y'all know I'm not dead
I don't know when I'll be back on. As you can see, I removed (actually, deleted) all my works. I just can't write. I can't focus. I'll try writing, but my mind is going faster than my hands can keep up, even if I'm typing instead of actually writing. School is honestly the only thing I can really zone in on, and I'm a little behind on some things and I'd really rather not be (because a little bit over a long way adds up, y'know).
I know everyone posts that they leave because they've been dealing with super bad anxiety and panic attacks, but I don't know if it's exactly that. I don't think it's that I'm lazy (because I will work my butt off sometimes) it's just that I can't focus and then my interests change, which leaves me a lot more wips than just in writing. It's with school, other side hobbies, and honestly, relationships
it's just weird. And I'm still trying to figure out a good plan so that I can have an efficient day. Most days I feel like I did absolutely nothing and that I was a total failure. My mom will tell me otherwise, but I still feel like she's wrong
and not only that, but my hypersensitivity seems to be getting worse. I'm becoming more and more agitated by noises and not knowing how to deal with that agitation besides just snapping at somebody or crying
so . . . yeah
also, I'm surprised that I still have 300+ followers given that there's literally nothing my profile can give them
I'm not going to post my writing again. But if I were to do a work of my own, it would be a fic rating book, where I take fics that I've read (on Wattpad) and then talk about what I liked about them and what I didn't. I had thought of doing one where I solely take requests, but I struggle having enough focus to read just one Wattpadian chapter, so to having people give me stuff like that? no way
also, I've gotten into like fifty new fandoms lol