phantasmcloud

sorry for reposting/republishing the new chapter so many times; i keep seeing mistakes and i'm kind of editing it lmao

phantasmcloud

this message may be offensive 
all this racist ass shit within the police has me shaking with anger. the fact that some aren’t standing up or even supporting blm makes me so devastated and angry; you don’t have to post about it, although i don’t know why you wouldn’t, just sign the petitions. make a donation. say and DO SOMETHING. it’s so scary as a minority, and even though i’m not black, i stand up and rise with them. 
          
          i know people don’t look at my message board, but for the one or two who do, i hope you speak up with me.
          
          please sign the petitions, donate, share, and reach out to everyone you know. take advantage of your platforms.
          
          to sign the George Floyd petiton, text FLOYD to 55156.
          
          stay safe everyone.

phantasmcloud

dripping honey
          
          My black blinds crumpled against my window;
          Papered, dark-colored haze,
          Morning has come today. (can you face the day?)
          Touché.
          
          Hazel coloured eyes in golden hours,
          Lips turned up and then devoured,
          We’re being wired today.
          
          My life’s kind of average, a downer.
          Moods fluctuate out of my power.
          You don’t make it any better,
          But it’s not like matters.
          
          Turn up my psychic powers,
          Make it like I’m your matter,
          Mold me to your desire.
          I don’t give a damn, damn.
          
          Hazel coloured eyes in golden hours,
          Lips turned up and then devoured.
          We’re being wired today.
          
          Questionable thought,
          My mind scattered through and through,
          But I can only say thank you.
          For being here,
          Here.
          — 
          I feel like I can’t ever commit to anything,
          Albums records, or fresh friendships that I want to last,
          But can’t, just can’t.
          I’ll jot some thoughts for the next decade,
          Leave my future self ashamed and wondering.
          Flippant memories made seconds ago,
          Come and go, come and go, 
          Come and go.
          
          I’ll speak to my yellow walls that,
          “Today’s going to be like every other,”
          I always seem to never not be hypocritical.
          I speak for today’s tomorrow, I know you won’t ever be the same,
          Cause it’s just the way that is.
          
          Saying I’ve learned something,
          Might be the fattest lie ever to be conceived.
          I keep making mistakes; miracles just keep my sanity,
          I feel life’s just taking control, trying to keep me occupied.
          
          And I’m trying, 
          Girl I’m trying,
          I’m working for me, for me.
          For not only a simple sanity.