i genuinely hope that everything isn't as bad as they already are for you, the situations you are facing is hard and i hope that doesn't stop you from doing anything, i'm genuinely worried and it's been long since you've been active i hope that nothing bad is happening to you and your mother, i care for you so much and i'm praying that things get better, if you need any help i'll be here for you no matter what, love you so so much :((