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hii jen

@peachjeon omg ok i've decided to start listening recommend me some good shit!!

@0utdated YESSS OMG THIS MAKES ME SOSOSO HAPPY!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS, YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH THIS MEANS. A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE HOPPING ON THE KPOP BANDWAGON AND TRYING TO TALK IN KOREAN AND YKNOW JUST ENTERING KOREAN WORDS ON GOOGLE TRANSLATE AND PUTTING IT ON THEIR BLOGS FOR THE AESTHETIC. I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU TRYING TO LEARN ABOUT THE CULTURE, YOU HAVE NO IDEA. AND THAT VICE PRESIDENT THING IS SO COOL!!! IF U WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT ASIAN STRUGGLES & CULTURE, YOU SHOULD CHECK OUT @ASIANGIRLSUNITE ON INSTAGRAM!

@0utdated WOW!! BB THAT'S ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!! ONCE U LEARN KOREAN WE CAN CONVERSE AND WE CAN BASICALLY HAVE OUR OWN SECRET LANGUAGE AND IT'LL BE SOO FUN!! AND OMG TRIN A 95% AVERAGE IS SO GOOD!!! & yH YOU GO GIRL GET RID OF THOSE TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS! AND I PROMISE ABSOLUTELY NO ONE IS JUDGING U. KEEP BEING YOUR BEAUTIFUL SUNSHINEY ANGEL SELF BC NO ONE CAN TEAR U DOWN! ALSO MY LIFE IS GOING GREAT RN!! IM GOING ON A SCHOOL TRIP TO WASHINGTON DC ON SATURDAY AND STAYING THERE FOR 3 DAYS AND ITS GOING TO BE NCJDNIWOMQ IM SO EXCITED! AND IM TRYING TO START MAKING A CHANGE SO IM HANGING UP THESE PROTEST POSTERS IN MY SCHOOL ABOUT THE RULES ON LEGGINGS AND THEY MIGHT BAN THEM SOON! SO U GOTTA HELP ME THINK OF SAYINGS TO PUT ON THOSE! AND IM ADDING A SALAD BAR TO OUR SCHOOL LUNCHES AND IM JUST FEELJG REALLY GOOD ABOUT MYSELF RECENTLY EDBUNWDI!! AND IVE BEEN A LITTLE BIT SAD A FEW TIMES BU I JUST KEEP MYSELF BUSY AND LOVE MYSELF!! SO MANY OVERWHELMING EXCLAMATION MARKS BUT I'M JUST SO GLAD THAT IM TALKING TO U I MISSED U!!!!!

but yeah I'm going to be Vice President of the kpop club at my school but idk if you may think I'm annoying with my whole kpop shit bc a lot of stans aren't actually serious about Korean culture and just want to follow a trend but I actually care about the culture because I'm very aware that black culture influences the Korean music industry really heavily and I think that it's important defend Korean idols and people who support Korean idols because kpop in general has so much backlash and racism directed towards it. And I think I can halfway relate to having your culture be shoved in your face by people who participate in it and celebrate it but won't celebrate the origin or the people who created. It's annoying and frustrating and I get it. I don't think I need non-black people coming up to me and trying to relate to me by speaking in AAVE and just utilizing my culture just to sound cooler but not giving two shits about what happens to my people. That's just not how it works. But I am serious about learning the language and actively supporting South Korean artists for all of their hard work!! 

HEY!! ILY AND UPDATE ON ME: IM GOING TO STUDY KOREAN AND JAPANESE AND IM LEARNING SPANISH SO SOON I'LL BE UR MULTI-LINGUAL FAV…THOSE ARE THE ONLY LANGUAGES I LIKE, FRENCH IS LIKE ANNOYING AND BORING AND LIKE IDK THE REST JUST SEEM UNINTERESTING PLUS ALREADY HAVE SOMEWHAT OF A VOCABULARY FOR THOSE LANGUAGES BESIDES JAPANESE I BARELY FUCKING KNOW ANYTHING IN JAPANESE AND IDK AFTER IM FLUENT IN THOSE THREE I GUESS I'LL LEARN LIKE PORTUGUESE IDEK WHAT OTHER LANGUAGE I WANNA LEARN AND IM LIKE REAAAAALLY GOOD AT SPANISH SO FAR (I've studied it for like 3 years wtf ofc im good at it) BUT MY SELF ESTEEM JUST DROPPED AND ROSE BACK UP IN A STAGGERING MOTION LATELY AND IDK HOW I FEEL ABOUT MYSELF RN BUT I THINK ITS GOTTEN WAAAY BETTER BC I CAN LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR AND GO "ooh nice dimple" AND IM JUST TRYING TO GET OVER A 95% AVERAGE BUT ITS SO HARD AND IDK MAN UM SADLANDS IS RLLY HARD AND I JUST WANT TO FIND PURE HAPPINESS LIKE THE BUDDHISTS SEARCH FOR NIRVANA (I'm researching belief systems in global history) AND I RID MYSELF OF TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS AND I NOTICED THAT I HAVE A WEIRD ANXIETY THAT IM BEING HARSHLY JUDGED ALL OF THE TIME AND I JUST WANT TO FOLD MYSELF DOWN AND HATE MYSELF BC OF OTHER PPL AND IM JUST TRYING TO LET THAT GOOO…BUT YEAH UM THATS MY LIFE UPDATE PLS TELL ME HOW YOURS IS!! I LOVE U JEN!!

JEN

hi jen!! ily!! i miss u like frick!! ok well im drowning in schoolwork so we can talk later bye!!

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