nak luah perasaan skit..
Aku ni kan.. aku tak perfect. Tak pernah hampir pun dengan perkataan perfect tu. Aku jahat, aku bodoh, aku gila, aku attention seeker dan macam² lagi. I did a lot of mistakes in my life. Everytime I flashback it, that's when I feel I should dissappear.
World is better if i didn't existed.
Nobody's know how many times I feel unwanted and cried thinking about all mistakes in my life. People gonna say 'Oh it just a mistakes, move on' no. I couldn't. Every mistakes I did, that's what will change my life even 1%.
I hate everything about me. My appearance, my indentity, my personality. Everything.
I tried to improve myself to be a better person but I don't think it will change people perspective towards me.
I really want to remove all my memories and trauma. It hurts so much everytime I remember it. My heart feels so heavy and I always cried for my past.
I couldn't control my past but I really hope I can forget about it.
Idk what I'm saying now.. but I just really hate myself.