on the good side, if everything goes right i will be able to go to c1 lessons this july and then take the exam on august which would be amazing because if i have to take it in december i will cry, i'm graduating next year and i don't think i'll be able to pull everything off
pmg i'm so nervous, tomorrow i have a philosophy test and on top of that i will have to do a test at an english school so that they can check my proficiency level,,, which is kinda weird cause my english is immaculate but i still get nervous and say "hi! (sorry for my bad english!)" qjskqke i hate myself
i think in these past two(? months i haven't slept more than 5-6 hours every night which is just so unhealthy cause i definitely need more than that.
on top of that, my stupid philosophy teacher showed us our exams and apparently i got a 9,25 ??? and it's surprising because i've been working my ass off all year round just for him to always give me 5 and then suddenly in this exam (which i half assed btw) i got this.
i kinda feel that after bullying me these months (with him saying he supports and loves russia's past dictators) he feels bad about what's happening in ukraine lmao that's what i call character development
@soobmarine oh thank you so much! i have been feeling down when it comes to writing so you saying this truly made my day (or week or month or whatever you wanna call it). thank you for this and i am glad really really you like it!!
this is so sad,,, today i found out that russia declared war against ukraine and there goes my stupid classmate telling me "how can you be so calm when that's happening in your country?"
oh i'm sorry i just found out. i'm sorry i'm not bawling my eyes out for you to see. i'm sorry i'm internalizing my feelings so that i just don't break down in the middle of a freaking biology class. and i know it's not my fault but he just made me feel so ??? idk(? guilty???