spicywaad

please, read.
          	
          	i don’t often talk about my feelings, neither do i relent on knowing a certain way or approach when it comes to that. a poem could do it, but that’s a temporary approach, cause in reality, suppression has been my sacred guidance on almost every night. i can’t form the right words that embrace my being, not a single word, no sense of aggression or muse. just me, those demons and voices that push me to worry. ‘the state of worrying’, rather being misunderstood, feeling myself wash away in thin air; missing a word called home without knowing what it actually means. i feel it all, the mixture of bitterness on my skin, for the sight of indifference. and how someone can be perfectly seen as good but conflicts the roots of a relationship. i feel, for once i allowed myself to feel, but it’s getting harder to overcome that tsunami of feels. looking for a direction for that storm of emotions is almost suicidal—because you would only be left with questions that the universe would be too scared to answer. so, does that make me someone brave enough for showing their vulnerability to the world? for showing it to you guys?  
          	
          	i’m tired. by all means, the suffocating sense of existence is something i was pushing to the back of my head, for so long. because, who am i, without what i write? without an identity; am i valid enough for feeling hurt and lost? i’ve endured a lot of things by isolation, but it only brings more melancholy to my heart. being fragile, a fear that i never knew i had, and the mystery that is overwhelming. sometimes, i wish, i wish it made sense why i’m alive, breathing or existing. but it won’t matter, when the times comes, i don’t feel like it ever will.
          	-romi.
          	
          	
          	

trouble_ontheway

@spicywaad  Now you can see how many people are ready to be there for you. You have so much love. Just see it and accept it. An identity isn't matter as long as you're sincere. Mystery makes you interesting, on the other hand, insecure. 
          	  Come...you know me, you know where I am.  
          	  Even if I'm as down as you, I won't let us go to south.. Just COME, son. I won't say I'll always be here and there for you, you're not alone tho. I'll be your home, you can come home and relax.
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Waloee

@ spicywaad  the fact that we will never have an answer to this question makes me want to drown, but maybe we were just born to die, maybe it is that simple, maybe we, humans, just like to overthink some things. Maybe this feeling of emptiness that we feel because this question of what are meant to be will just never disapear and maybe its for the best or the worst, in the end we are all just gonna die anyway. I will not dare to ask you to do or not do something because your tought are personal and i should not interfere, but may you find some peace of mind in whatever way you feel comfortable dear.
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theycalledmeweak_

@spicywaad  I don't know you that well.. and i know it is kinda weird to talk with someone you don't know. But you know I am here for you if you need me. I won't judge I promise. 
          	  Also.. sometimes I also feel so tired. And also ask myself what am I living for... I find the reason why and I continue. First of all you should learn to live for yourself then you can find any other reason... 
          	  *sigh* I don't like talking such things here.. if you would like to have a talk I am always here for you, you can always pm me darling. 
          	  Stay strong and please take care of yourself ❤️
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spicywaad

please, read.
          
          i don’t often talk about my feelings, neither do i relent on knowing a certain way or approach when it comes to that. a poem could do it, but that’s a temporary approach, cause in reality, suppression has been my sacred guidance on almost every night. i can’t form the right words that embrace my being, not a single word, no sense of aggression or muse. just me, those demons and voices that push me to worry. ‘the state of worrying’, rather being misunderstood, feeling myself wash away in thin air; missing a word called home without knowing what it actually means. i feel it all, the mixture of bitterness on my skin, for the sight of indifference. and how someone can be perfectly seen as good but conflicts the roots of a relationship. i feel, for once i allowed myself to feel, but it’s getting harder to overcome that tsunami of feels. looking for a direction for that storm of emotions is almost suicidal—because you would only be left with questions that the universe would be too scared to answer. so, does that make me someone brave enough for showing their vulnerability to the world? for showing it to you guys?  
          
          i’m tired. by all means, the suffocating sense of existence is something i was pushing to the back of my head, for so long. because, who am i, without what i write? without an identity; am i valid enough for feeling hurt and lost? i’ve endured a lot of things by isolation, but it only brings more melancholy to my heart. being fragile, a fear that i never knew i had, and the mystery that is overwhelming. sometimes, i wish, i wish it made sense why i’m alive, breathing or existing. but it won’t matter, when the times comes, i don’t feel like it ever will.
          -romi.
          
          
          

trouble_ontheway

@spicywaad  Now you can see how many people are ready to be there for you. You have so much love. Just see it and accept it. An identity isn't matter as long as you're sincere. Mystery makes you interesting, on the other hand, insecure. 
            Come...you know me, you know where I am.  
            Even if I'm as down as you, I won't let us go to south.. Just COME, son. I won't say I'll always be here and there for you, you're not alone tho. I'll be your home, you can come home and relax.
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Waloee

@ spicywaad  the fact that we will never have an answer to this question makes me want to drown, but maybe we were just born to die, maybe it is that simple, maybe we, humans, just like to overthink some things. Maybe this feeling of emptiness that we feel because this question of what are meant to be will just never disapear and maybe its for the best or the worst, in the end we are all just gonna die anyway. I will not dare to ask you to do or not do something because your tought are personal and i should not interfere, but may you find some peace of mind in whatever way you feel comfortable dear.
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theycalledmeweak_

@spicywaad  I don't know you that well.. and i know it is kinda weird to talk with someone you don't know. But you know I am here for you if you need me. I won't judge I promise. 
            Also.. sometimes I also feel so tired. And also ask myself what am I living for... I find the reason why and I continue. First of all you should learn to live for yourself then you can find any other reason... 
            *sigh* I don't like talking such things here.. if you would like to have a talk I am always here for you, you can always pm me darling. 
            Stay strong and please take care of yourself ❤️
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spicywaad

who is your bias?

dynshnlpdrlvz

@spicywaad it's the dance break for me. But the mv (over all) was so greaaaat! 
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unluvened

@spicywaad bish what hahahahaha  
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theycalledmeweak_

@spicywaad  oh in blackpink.. Lisa *giggle* and yes I have been okay thank you. How have you been dear
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vegan_dumpling

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your words and how you write darkness and here i am reading your words and your work at 2 am so fucking impressed at your writing ability. damn pls never stop sharing. I must say i never cringed with the themes u used. Just wow. 

vegan_dumpling

Yes absolutely I dont think readers realize how hard it is to write themes like this since and you are doing amazing ! We’re always going to be here reading your work!
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spicywaad

@vegan_dumpling i'm very appreciative of your kind gestures--hope reading at night set the mood, and my works are nothing without the support of people like you, truly. thanks to you, for existing <3
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1st_anonymous

Hi author I'm sorry in advance and thank you so much that using your platform for this... Hi guys! Guess what?! Watty deleted my account last July 28 so I never update my previous adaptation which is the ATONEMENT if you are familiar with that title and story! so I have a new account again if you are willing to read my adaptations just give me time and have patience. Happy Reading and Ciao miss u all ❤
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/318434419?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create&wp_uname=new_anonymous-sama&wp_originator=wQtOm%2FzT%2FkaPkwcP88Lz%2BAWhX%2F7N%2B3AXzIdsaue7BzuhZaRP%2FqvPuhH6uuqrWY38gJQ6Jnu9VeDOmXWJIoHmZJLWG3DvazLq0bDzHLj11jn4o4PE3jgxAliB2nkxUQEe

spicywaad

what’s the most attractive thing in someone?

vegan_dumpling

The ability for them to hold a conversation and the way they engage and give their insights that makes you want to not stop talking to them. i find it really sexy when someone can hold a conversation well esp when they get passionate about it.
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lazylucifer_

@spicywaad me. kidding. according to her she cannot choose one because all of them are attractive.
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stfulma

@spicywaad well, i think that makes them more attractive. For me. Because we will need each other to assess things.
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spicywaad

birthday girl here, unsure if i should go out to the beach or stay home, haha

her_shorty

@spicywaad belated happy birthday, Romi
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L_M2327

@spicywaad Happy birthday!!!
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chocowellow

@spicywaad Happy Birthday!!!
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