stxne_hearted

2K, 6K, 15K, that's just insane, thank you guys <33

becauseiwill

          28 Stories
          
          Your heart had 28 stories to tell,
          When we were friends.
          When I first met you,
          I knew we were kindred spirits.
          Your soul was broken
          Just like mine,
          But different 
          In so many ways.
          
          Two souls
           Like two uneven marbles,
          Struggling to roll over
          Our own hillocks,
          But disfigured inside
          All the same. 
          
          I thought I needed to teach you,
          The younger,
          The knowledge of one year ahead.
          Instead, 
          You taught me about sadness,
          Things I will never forget.
          
          Your heart had 28 stories to tell,
          When we were friends.
          I read each one carefully, 
          I praised the good work,
          Then I thought of the cracks 
          That they filled in your soul.
          
          Through them, 
          We grew closer.
          I learned the stories by heart. 
          But destiny often separates
          The souls too much alike.
          
          Our paths were divided,
          Then we grew worlds apart.
          And one year later,
          I returned to the start.
          
          You were waiting already,
          Our paths crossed again!
          I reached into your soul,
          And saw then,
          Than your heart now had
          33 stories to tell.
          
          Five doesn’t seem 
          Like over a few months,
          But two stories to you,
          Were like centuries apart. 
          So, I read the five stories,
          I counted the words 
          That had grown between us, 
          Like a vine that had spread,
          At times, overtaking thirds.
          
          I felt cold unfamiliarity,
          Where there used to be warmth.
          I could no longer picture
          The thoughts behind 
          The author’s words. 
          That’s how I realised,
          Not only you had changed,
          Now my heart also had
          Many more stories to tell…
          
          Here I am now,
          Worlds apart,
          I extend my hand to
          A once-familiar marble.
          I ask not to erase
          The stories we told 
          In our time apart,
          But to join forces once more,
          To start writing together.
          Let’s add to the next story,
          Just two singular digits, for now:
          28.

becauseiwill

The blue in your heart 
            Has grown a shade deeper.
            The navy blue 
            Has become a midnight shade.
            
            I have now embraced the hole
            Deeper than I  ever 
            Will be able to heal
            Or repair.
            
            I wish I could have done more,
            I wish we weren’t broken
            Into a million  shards
            Scattered over 
            A million  yards.
            
            
            My heart has also written
            Tens of tales and stories 
            Fit in one book to bind them all.
            And I, like you, appreciate more 
            The rewards of my newer works.
            
            
            However, in time,
            The cracks in my heart
            Were closed up with stories,
            Like fire melts the glass. 
            I still have a new,
            Rotten and bleeding 
            part, but
            It is in a different chamber 
            Then at the start.
            
            It is one a normal person 
            Can’t heal,
            Only the people who hurt it
            Can peel
            The dead skin, the grime
            And clean up the crime…
            Why would they though?
            Since they bashed it last time?
            
            The part that you live in,
            The chamber of my soul,
            It is healthy and dressed
            In the strongest of gold.
            For you didn’t hurt me,
            Your pain only did.
            It wasn’t your fault,
            So please understand.
            
            I wish, with my whole
            Soul and properly sealed
            Heart of a twinning marble,
            To help you write stories,
            Not only that you like,
            But stories that will heal up
             Your heart.
            Let’s take it
            From the start.
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stxne_hearted

@becauseiwill
            
            28 stories, I was able to write with you
            And both broken souls, we understood that time
            That I was trying to heal and I was doing it with you
            But I left for I had to and acted like it was fine.
            5 more stories I was able to write without you,
            And I like them better, I really won't lie.
            But it doesn't mean that I liked me better without you.
            It only means that your wisdom reflected on the new lines.
            I admit, I do know so much about sadness, it's true
            Since we parted ways, I too received more signs
            You may have healed, but I became more blue.
            When you approached, I imagined that I had really done a crime
            I feel it in my soul, the regret that I hurt you, 
            I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
            For I hurt you
            And I have no more left to write.
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stxne_hearted

not gonna lie, while putting my stories back up, i almost had a stroke trying to locate the button T-T it really goes to show that i haven't had anything new to show and update you guys in a really long time, haha. i actually did almost forget i had promised i'd put this back up ^3^ oops
          
          anyways, all my ancient works are up again (it's almost been a year since i've unpublished them woww) just for the readers who want them back and definitely not for my pride in my own works because that one is non-existent
          
          here's a list:
          1. Boo, I scared you...
          2. Wait For Me
          3. Keep Holding On
          4. The Ticking Time
          
          that's the list of all the works i put back up ^^ disclaimer again: my works are very different from my writing now (that i haven't showed you [yet?]), and i've definitely had some things that would cause "character development" to put it lightly over the times i've been inactive here; personally though, i think you can definitely see some of that despite me never having talked about it as you read throughout my works in the ticking time (there are actually some stories i enjoyed reading over there despite being a self-depreciating writer !!) i could probably rewrite them like i always said i would, but...i don't think i can at this moment i'm telling you this now, i also can't promise that they'll ever be rewritten, so don't get your hopes up for a better version unfortunately 
          
          another thing i haven't talked much about is one of my unfinished fics on here and i really do highly doubt i'll ever finish it. it was pretty cute, though, but i don't want to cause the same pain i've felt reading unfinished works after getting attached too much, so, big chances are, you'll never see that. fun fact: it was titled promise me :)
          
          hope my works still warm your heart as they did before, and i hope they can serve as your little escape for some time. enjoy ! ºvº

stxne_hearted

@lovely2setter the difference between us is, i actually haven't written since that time, heheheh, hope the memories keep coming, good luck on your examsss!
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lovely2setter

@stxne_hearted oh my I relate so much of not publishing new fics cause bro Ive been working on 4 new pics for the past 3 years behind the scenes, fighting the writer's block for each book by trying to finish another and I'm just SOOOOO UUUUGGGHHHH. but ey I'm happy you posted the old ones, man memories are gonna come back to me in a flash after I read em. but ill do that after my exams.
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stxne_hearted

not that i have any new stories to share with you all but my works will be back up on february 7th :) 
          
          now, i'd just like to put it up that my works are definitely very different from how they are now, and the person i've become -- I still don't know if it's someone better or worse -- is definitely someone else. 
          
          however, some of you want them back up, and who am i to stop that from happening? 
          
          i would also definitely have to put a disclaimer here that no updates were made from the previous time they were announced, despite my intentions being shared of updating them into becoming better versions of themselves. 
          
          also, feel free to post some prompts that you'd want me to see, just in case I can write again. :)

stxne_hearted

@Zalixx333 you're welcome! happy reading <3
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Zalixx333

@stxne_hearted thank you so much!!!! I look forwards to reading your books again!!
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stxne_hearted

oh wow it's been months since i unpublished, i wonder how many reads my works would have had if i didn't, but alas, what's done is done haha, send a message if you perhaps want it back! i'll act accordingly on how i decide to give you what you want :)

stxne_hearted

@Zalixx333 thanks for giving me a responseee
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Zalixx333

@stxne_hearted I loved all of them, and personally, I'd love all of them to be back for us to read if that's alright with you <3333
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lovely2setter

Hi, I miss you. Just saw frizz and liszt account was inactive. I was looking through all my comments and I saw urs and I was so happy. I hope I get to talk to you again soon. I miss u so much. I miss reading your amazing writing. I hope you are happy and safe. Please talk to me whenever u wish/are free. I'm sad my favorite online friends are going inactive, but I'm gonna keep my hope up. 
          Love, 
          L2

stxne_hearted

@lovely2setter thank you so much <3 the same goes for me with you, especially since with the way you started your year :(
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lovely2setter

@stxne_hearted oh nooo you're not late. I'm just glad you replied. I'm sorry you're not happy. I hope whatever you are going through passes quickly. if you need someone to talk to, pls talk to me. I wish you all the well, and wish you strength. I still wish you are happy and safe. 
            
            with love.
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stxne_hearted

@lovely2setter safe but not happy haha i'm sorry to have left you here but if your hope is still up- well, i hope i wasn't too late.
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stxne_hearted

Really late but thank you for 12K reads !!

The_BrightWrites

Woaah! Congratulations!
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