vegetable_oil

I've been having trouble breathing properly lately. (for a couple months, bit it's been worse lately) 
          	
          	I don't know why. 
          	
          	I told my parents. And as per usual, they didn't listen nor care. 
          	
          	So, I'd I die, and never reply to anyone ever again, just know that I *did* tell someone and I did acknowledge that there could be something wrong with me. 

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vegetable_oil

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vegetable_oil

@bangtan716 no...? I don't know how. 
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vegetable_oil

I've been having trouble breathing properly lately. (for a couple months, bit it's been worse lately) 
          
          I don't know why. 
          
          I told my parents. And as per usual, they didn't listen nor care. 
          
          So, I'd I die, and never reply to anyone ever again, just know that I *did* tell someone and I did acknowledge that there could be something wrong with me. 

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vegetable_oil

@tan225 thx (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤
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vegetable_oil

@bangtan716 no...? I don't know how. 
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vegetable_oil

I just realized something..... Unfortunately, I'm kind of a simp, and I just recently (as in 30 seconds ago) I have a type.     *blink blink* 

SUCKINANDFUCKIN

@vegetable_oil I have chronic simp disease so I am very well versed ( ͡°❥ ͡°). Do tell (∂ω∂). Let us know your type because, mine is elegant people with long hair ( ͡°³ ͡°) but my type changes every two seconds so tomorrow it won't be the same. 
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vegetable_oil

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I'm fucking tired and I hate school with a burning passion.
          
          
          
          I wish I could murder the person who thought going to school this early was a good idea. 
          
          
          And sometimes, public transportation is so fucking garbage. Like how you gonna make me sit on a bus everyday for an hour and a half, when normally it's a 15 minute drive???
          
          Ugh. 
          
          And yes I'm aware the world doesn't revolve around me and that other ppl have places to be aswell. 
          
          Doesn't make it any less annoying. 

vegetable_oil

@SUCKINANDFUCKIN thx u too (⁠☞゚⁠∀゚⁠)⁠☞
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SUCKINANDFUCKIN

@vegetable_oil School is making me wanna do arson too ʕง•ᴥ•ʔง. I'm so glad I don't have to engage in public transportation (ノ_-;)… I am so sorry for you and I will be wishing you well and hoping school gets better for you ٩(๑꒦ິȏ꒦ິ๑)۶
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meiiister

@vegetable_oil true tho I hate public transport with a burning passion. I had to ride it everywhere before I got my license it was horrible. And yep, it literally takes forever. I always hated when they'd stop for like an hour to get food or something, like obviously they need breaks but it doesn't change the fact it's annoying af and you just wanna get home  LOL 
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vegetable_oil

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Good Morning, Good Afternoon, or Good Evening.    :) 
          
          1. How are you guys? 
          
          2. What's you favorite weather(s)? 
          
          3. Do any of you have childhood memories that you love so so so much, but they make you feel really bad, or like sad because of how your point of view of your family or yourself has changed, but not in a good way? 
          
          
          I'm fine. 
          
          I used to love winter, but since quarantine Its just to cold for me now. And it's only fall rn. Lol.  
          
          I have this one memory of a Christmas a couple years ago, everyone in my family (that I live with ) was smiling and opening presents, and just overall filled with joy and warmth.  Now though? That sounds super unrealistic and too happy, and sometimes I wish I could go back in time and just chill in a time that I didn't know how fucked up the world (and my family) was, y'know when I was an oblivious youth. 

vegetable_oil

@bahthub yes. exactly. 
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bahthub

@vegetable_oil I want to go back when no one expected anything of me
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vegetable_oil

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Unpopular Opinion Of Mine: 
          
          Zodiac signs are bullshit, and just feed into stereotyping and categorizing people. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          ps.you don't have to agree with me that's just what my personal opinion is on this topic. 

SUCKINANDFUCKIN

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@vegetable_oil I personally believe in zodiacs, because I believe in a lot of spiritual and ritual stuff (no god shit tho) and zodiacs are a big part of that. I also like them because they are kinda fun to analyze ✧・゚:*( ͡ꈍ ͜ʖ̫ ͡ꈍ )*:・゚✧
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bahthub

@vegetable_oil either people like blaming their bad behavior on what the stars looked like when they were born, do it to just be "quirky" and "unique" or genuinely believe that the date you were born and the stars during that date influence your actions and future
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meiiister

I agree. Same with horoscopes imo. They make them so generalized that usually it will relate to a person no matter what it says. Or the compatibility with horoscopes and relationships I think is bs too. Like everyone is their own person. I never really get stuff like that but again maybe that's just me 
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vegetable_oil

How r u guys? 

LocalMissWeeb

@vegetable_oil WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON, WHEN I WAS SICK I APPARENTLY GOT AN EAR INFECTION AND RUPTURED MY EARDRUM??
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vegetable_oil

@LocalMissWeeb bruhhhhh that's so rude smh 
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vegetable_oil

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warning: The following has some very not good stuff about my mental health in it. U probably shouldn't read it. 
          
          
          
          
          I think I just had an actual mental breakdown. My motherfucking parents.Why was I chosen to have such fucked up family. I swear to God. I will kill myself if they keep acting how they act. All they ever do is fight fight and fkn fight. All my siblings are fucking affected. I can't keep finding my little brother hiding in his room because "mommy and daddy are scaring me". all my parents care about is themselves. I nearly broke down at school today because someone was talking about how good their relationship was with their mother. Probably because their mother actually gives a shit about them. And maybe even their fathers too Why can't my siblings have that? Why can't I have that?Why are my parents so fucking oblivious to the people around them? The children around them no less? Then, after not getting along for nearly a year they wanna act as though we are such a perfect blessed family. They have been doing this non-stop. FOR FUCKING YEARS. And it's not just about my siblings.it's about me too.My mental health has been deteriorating for fucking months.

tan225

@vegetable_oil you been hurting so long and if venting here helps continue and know your virtual supporters want you to be happy and safe,so please don't think of hurting yourself..keep fighting.♥️
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meiiister

I think the comments explained it perfectly.
             I hope your parents can find a way to stop being this way. Sometimes when things like this happen, divorce is much better than letting you guys go through this, and maybe one day they’ll realise that. My parents divorced when I was like 4ish and it's probably the best thing for them with the way they used to fight too. You're an awesome brother for helping to comfort your siblings no matter how difficult it is. I hope you don't ever give up. 
            
            A year and a half is amazing, and I know it's hard to not resort to doing the things you once knew as a coping mechanism, but in the end it really doesn't help you. Maybe for a few minutes, but after that it won't do anything for you. I hope you can pull through this because you're so strong for making it this far already, I have no doubt you can pull through this ❤️ 
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SUCKINANDFUCKIN

I wish I would write this much in school ʕ ꆤ ᴥ ꆤʔ
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vegetable_oil

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also, I've been meaning to post something more serious here about my life, but tbh I don't want to bumbard ppl on the internet with my life's bullshit. Cuz u never really know what someones going through, and placing my problems on someone else's shoulders just doesn't seem right, yk? 
          
          I also don't want to bring myself more attention, especially cuz I'm paranoid of internet ppl like, tracking me and knowing who I am, cuz I have some not so great things going on, that I've only shared online as a way to have an outlet. And I sure as fuck don't want a lot of that to get out to ppl I know well, or just ppl in general. 
          

tan225

@vegetable_oil vent away, don't keep it bottled up,♥️
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vegetable_oil

@SUCKINANDFUCKIN ok.       (⁠ ⁠´⁠◡⁠‿⁠ゝ⁠◡⁠`⁠)
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SUCKINANDFUCKIN

@vegetable_oil If it helps you to vent out your problems I one hundred percent support it (≡^∇^≡) Please don't hold things in for the sake of others (if you are worried about making others upset with your posts, maybe you can add a warning IDK (ʘᴗʘ✿)) 
            
            I understand being paranoid by the internet ಥ_ಥ it's mad scary, but I think you have a good community to talk to and trust! 
            
            You are always welcome to talk about your hardships ☆(ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ* 
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