xxTheLucidDreamerxx
I love him so much that I can’t even think of anything but him,I can’t even feel happy a day without seeing him that day.Every day I keep thinking about him.I love him so much that I don’t want anything bad happening to him because of something bad happens to him I will be sad.I am happy when he is happy,I feel depressed and sad when he feels the same.I play the same songs that are his favorite.I try to make his hobbies my hobbies.I always think of our future as a couple.I have never loved any other guy like I love him now.I don’t know.I feel like one day my heart is going to break into tiny pieces because after all the guy I am in love with doesn’t even know my name but I know so much about him that one day if he gets to know he would think I am mad but I do assure him no other girl can love him like I do.I love him so much that his flaws look perfect to me and even though I hate people with bad habits like smoking I still love him.His flaws are invisible,my friends tell me that the guy I am interested in isn’t even “good looking enough” but for me he looks better than Leonardo DiCaprio,I don’t know why I am in love with him but for sure I know that love is blind and so I am now.Its like He is a part of my personality and I can’t be happy without him in my life.Whenever I see him across my street my heart beats so fast and I can experience 2 opposite emotions,the 1st being the emotion of love and happiness and the 2nd being that of hatred,anger and sadness which is due to the amount of love that I for him.I hate that I love him,I hate that he doesn’t even know me,I hate myself for not being good enough for him since he is into “hot” girls but I am a cute girl who isn’t necessarily sexy or hot,I hate myself for loving a guy that I thought I would never fall for since I don’t like men who smoke.But now I have learnt something in life in order to love someone you need put down your walls and lower your ego and that can lead to betterment of you or your destruction.