Wild Vengeance 2: "The Reserved Twin" (Finished)

RESERVED ISSUE no.18

       
      It feels just like how a deja vu would standing here in front of the huge gate of the Lacsons'. Yes. I will sacrifice. For my baby's sake.

Pero kinakabahan ako. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong maramdaman if I come face-to-face with Mattheo.
  Hindi ko alam kung maiiyak ba ako o hindi. Should I be happy seeing him? Should I cry?

I've haven't closed the doors to my issues yet. At natatakot akong masaktan kapag makita ko si Mattheo being happy.
  Ayokong makita siya na masaya at bumalik sa dati ang buhay niya. Aside from having the feeling of unfairness, nasasaktan din ako, naiinggit ako. I envy how his world could still go back to what is was before. While mine would never be the same. It would never go back to what it was.

  I smiled at manang as she was the one to open the gate.
"Manang."

"Anong kailangan mo?"

  Slowly, my smile faded as she looked at me without delight in her eyes. In fact, walang kahit anong expression sa mukha niya. It even seemed that she doesn't want to see me...anymore.

I felt a knife in my heart stabbing me.

  "Ss–si Mattheo po?"

"Pumasok ka."

I was hesitant to follow her and walk inside. Pakiramdam ko, hindi naman ako welcome.
I looked at the entrance. Then the whole house. This used to be my second home. I used to be welcome here. Now, it felt different.

   "Mia. Pumasok ka na. Kaya mo naman sigurong maglakad?"

I closed my eyes and inhaled for air then exhaled it. This is for my baby. You can do this Mia. Just this once, be brave.

   It was the heaviest footsteps of my entire life. Walking towards the entrance of the Lacson residence. People staring at me with confusion and judgements written on their faces.

   Sumunod lang ako kay manang. And she led me to the kitchen.

"Umupo ka muna. Nasa taas pa ang mag-asawang Lacson. Sila ang kakausap sa'yo."

Manang then busied herself with cooking something na hindi ko alam kung ano.

   And with her saying na ang mag-asawa ang kakausap sakin, mas nadagdagan ang kaba ko. For sure, alam na nila ang tungkol sa nangyari saamin ni Mattheo. Ang tungkol sa nagawa ko sa kaniya at sa business nila.

I've haven't heard anything from him ever since our last conversation. I don't wanna know anything about him. Ayokong magkaroon ng kahit anong connection sa amin in my moving forward state. Yet fate really is a playboy for doing this to me. For giving us the very best and an unbreakable new connection. Just great!

   Pero bakit ang parents ang haharap saakin? Not to be disrespectful, pero si Mattheo mismo ang kailangan kong makausap. He needs to know first.

  Well, he isn't really the first one to know. We have ate Pryce, and my family. When we got home the next morning, tinulungan ako ni ate Pryce na magsabi sa kanila mamà and bampá.
Mjio was half happy and half worried about me, about how I feel, about how I felt. Kai had the same set of emotions towards my pregnancy.

  Mamà cried, bampá remained calm. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganun ang naging reaksyon nila pareho. I somehow imagine bampá getting so mad at me, or at Mattheo, kasi malalaman nila ang nangyari saakin. I somehow thought bampá would put Mattheo behind bars. But he just said nothing.

  I was starting to cry with all the frustrations. I kept saying sorry to them. Mamà hugged me and said that I should calm down for it won't do the baby any good. Then I was relieved when bampá hugged me too saying, "I am not angry nor disappointed, Mia. I am proud you didn't hide this from us. We'll help you through your pregnancy, and throughout your baby's growing up days."