she always knew something was wrong,
that something was off,
that she was different from others,
she can't really remember anything from her childhood.
all she remembers is this feeling,like tension on her chest,
or this feeling, this voice in her mind...that she had to be the best
and, if she wasn't she would be a failure no matter what...
she never told anyone that it felt like she was suffocating ever since she was born
cause that wouldn't really matter, what would that change?
it would change nothing...not the relationship with her parents...not the relationship
with her sisters..it would only make it harder for her to be the best in the world...
cause if she cannot become the best, the tension, the suffocating feeling in her body
would get worse and it would take over her life...
even though it's already apart of her, and she doesn't know how to live without it...
