Can you remind me again what I was fretting about
I seem to even forget what it was I was nervous about
That is how much life has ailed me
I forget about the things I have to say
That is how much my thoughts have numbed me
I am in a loop of forgetfulness
In a maze with no way out for me to taste the sun's rays
Calming myself I try thinking how to make things easier
But don't I already know better
It isn't the lack of attempts that have hindered my growth
It is the abandonment of talent and skill and perseverance among many that have made me stumble on my toes
I ask myself when I turned so dumb
Then deviating to something else I save myself the embarrassment that the truth would hum
Should I sleep now or think of more ways of reproaching myself
Should I allow myself to calm down or think of ways to get nervous again
This has become a story of every night
With every moment increases the severity of my plight
So goodnight to the world that for me is too bright
Let me embrace the darkness and be a writer of the nights
