|| Left on read || KTH. Oneshot

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Today was the day marking two years when the beat of my heart left his body, it's been two years since he never came back again,
Smiling at the picture of us together, few tears dropped left my eyes, worse part was, I never got to put my feelings infront of him, how I wish that day I didn't let him go,

"Y/n! Y/n! Atleast listen to me please!!!!" he ran behind me chasing in the home as I was running away from him, super mad at his behaviour nowadays,
"I have something really really important to tell you,"
"I don't wanna listen Taehyung, I am enough of your shits, you barely get time for me now," I was more than just mad at him, those days it was testing my patience on him, I was holding myself back to burst my all onto him,
"Ahhhhh..I am really really sorry," he groan with a devastated tone lips forming into a pout, but I wasn't going to give in like always,
"Taehyung just tell me, what you do, and where do you even go!" I shouted at him shaking my head, he never told me and ask me to wait for the right time I couldn't wait anymore,
"See I said na I would tell you when the time will come honey-"
"Are you probably some terrorist making a plan or something huh?" I cutted him off, my words felt like a stabbed to him as I was watched his face forming a painful expression,
"Never in my life I would have thought you would choose these words in my life Y/n, I am really disappointed..that's fine, don't talk to me, I am going," he immediately left the place, and as he went passed him, I felt a huge weight getting carried on my shoulders, knowing how much he is loyal to his country, I shouldn't had  said that, what I did? O god...how big of a mess I created,
I felt guilt taking over me again and again as tears finally left my eyes blurring my vision as I wiped them off,
Taking my phone texting and calling him to come back,
Calls after calls, no answer, no messages seen, he didn't blocked me for sure, and I had no idea where he was,
With each second passing by, I was getting more and more worried,

After few days,
It' had been  8 days and still no reply or text of him, I decided to go through our chats, I was feeling like to hug him and tell him how much I love him, but it felt like I would never be able to tell,
Checking through our chats........................................the message was seen?
I felt a spark running through me, if he did read the texts, why he didn't replied?

Walking to living room with a phone in hand and several thought ringing my head, I turned the TV on, the channel was news, I wasn't paying much attention and walking continuesly apologizing to him through texts when I heard something,
"Today, in Kia mission 615, Kim Taehyung, Kim Yeongin, Min Lark, Park Minjun and Lee Mark are found dead, they sacrificed themselves for the sake our safety and life, please watch our peace show dedicated to them on 4pm-",
that's it, I couldn't hear more, I froze on my spot, my eyes were about to come from socket as several pools of tears rolled down my cheeks soaking them salty,
I never knew..he was an agent, how big fool I was, that's it, I fall on ground crying my heart out but he wasn't there to hold me in, in his arms tightly, I stood up and ran to his room,
There..I found..a note, I hadn't went there  in those 8 days,
'Dear Y/n,
                I wholeheartedly apologize for my ignorance towards you, but I can't do anything, my mind is totally messed up, I wanted to tell, but I didn't knew how now I am gathering courage to tell you when I am going to do this mission, I swear I would come back and when I will, I want to propose you to be mine forever, I always loved you, and now I am actually fearing to lose you, that's why I am telling this now through this, I wish you find this and accept my love towards you my sweetheart ❤'

Tears were continuesly flowing through my eyes, my mind was going blank, I lost it, I lost his warmth, his love, his care, his Everything..I lost everything, I loved him, I love him, more than anything, it was getting hard to even breath at that moment, the moment felt so unreal..I felt so torn,
I felt so shattered, this is all because of me, I shouldn't had let him go, I should had listen to him, I should had held him close to my heart...but I didn't.

I placed the picture on table supported to the wall, I am here where he used to work, I am on his workstation, I thought to come here every year..because I miss him, I miss him the most, I did recovered but how will I ever move on from my only dream, my only happiness,
I took out my phone, typing him,

"My lovely Taehyung, I became what you wanted me to, now I work for free, now I work for people to get them a beautiful life, and that actually gives me joy, now I work for our people and....I miss you alot...I want to ask you to come back, but I wish the best for you, wherever you are, in whatever body you are, in whatever state you are, I just want you to be happy,"
*Sent* placing my phone on the desk I let out a huge breath I was holding, only to feel my phone buzz,
Taehyung: *seen*
                      "Typing..."