Empty
I always felt empty, even before my mom turned into a alcoholic, I was wonder what it felt like if I wasn't empty. I wonder how it was to have a normal family. A loving father and a kind mother. But why me? You know like why me? I always envy the people that had loving family's. Just to think of the thought in my mind makes me sick.
"I never loved you y/n"
"I will never considered you my daughter"
"Your a worthless piece of shit"
"You should kill yourself, bitch"
"No one will ever love your ugly self"
"Everyone hates you"
As those words replayed in my hand, why? She was right no one will never love me, but it all changed when I met her. She helped me, she showed me what love was, she showed me what a kind mother was, she was there when no one else was there.
Georgia Miller
She taught me how to love myself again. I wonder to myself if I never ran home that night where would I still be..
Would I be at that terrible house still..
would i be dead...
It's all her doing, she saved me, she was truly an angel.
"Hey! You get back here I'm talking to you! I don't want you with that guy or on that bike!"
As I awoke my so called nap I hear yelling outside of my door, that means they are home already, I look at the time.. 'huh only 4:20 I thought it would be later'
"I was an idiot, I broken my back giving you every opportunity that I never had, so you're gonna throw it all away for a wanna Shawn Hunter guy"
"What you nervous that I might tap into your weed supply mommy, I'm not banging anyone, cause I'm not you, I don't show up into a new town and immediately get a boyfriend.... I saw you today with that guy"
"Wait what guy.."
It broke my heart hearing Austin saying that line, as I walk to open my door I see Georgia bending down to put on his glasses
"What happen to your glasses Austin" I say as I open my door
"Why don't you tell Austin, Mom? That all you promise are just bullshit" Ginny says as she leans on the wall
"Because you already have you hooks into some guy, so don't give me the little sob story on the crap you went through because frankly it's boring" Ginny says as she slams the door
"You were with a guy" Austin says as he looks at Georgia
"Austin it's not...." Georgia tries to spit out her reason but ends up getting slammed in the face by Austin
"What do I do y/n..." Georgia says as she makes her way to my room. I let her come in and close my door. She walks over to my bed and lays down. I go to the other side and pull something out.
"Looks like we both need this." I say as I pass her a joint and a lighter. She puts it between her lips and lights it up. She closes her eyes and lets it all out and sighs after
"Maybe you should try talking to them.. One By One" I suggest while letting the smoke out of my mouth as well
"Yeah but you know how stubborn your sister is.. Maybe I can do a car picnic" She says as her eyes widen. Last time we did a car picnic was a while ago.
