Love Still

Week 293

Shu Yi.

Zhou Shu Yi.

Do you really hate me now? Do you really not have any more feelings towards me other than hate?

It's been months since I've come back to Taiwan.  And I have been chasing you almost just as soon as I've returned.

Now that I think about it, you are right. Not every thing can be undone. I claim to love you yet I hurt you. I claim to wanting to protect you yet I was the one that inflclicted pain on you. I claim to want to spend forever with you but it was I who destroyed my chance of a lifetime with you.

Maybe I should give up. Not because I don't love you anymore because I do, so so much, but because I don't deserve you. I don't deserve to love you and be with you. Not after what I've done.

I wish I can turn back time but that's impossible. I can't take back the 5 years that you suffered no matter what I do.

So from this point, I'm letting you go. This is the punishment I deserve for hurting you.

With all my heart and with all of my being, I love you, Zhou Shu Yi.