My mind
My heart
They ache
Crumbling from within the suffering of another
Their pain, a pain they have yet to know
A curse that they have yet to find
One that they unknowingly believe to be a blessing.He who wages war with the darkness within another.
Should look to it that he himself does not become the darkness
For if you gaze long into the abyss
The abyss gazes into you.My gaze has yet to waver
Their pain consuming every fiber of my being
And they have still yet to notice
The immense suffering of both their own soul and mine.
Feelings once that of malice and rage on behalf of another
Vanish before me
Subduction to the abyss seemingly inevitable
Now overwhelmed by pure desolation.
The void within my own being
Has been ignored for far too long
Regard for my own well being
Occupied by the agony of another
And will now make itself known.
I break from within
Shattering into a morsel of misery
The realization I have been poisoning myself
Cuts deeper than that of a wound inflicted from a nimble slash by the Sythe of the Grim Reaper himself.
Giving assistance but never accepting
Healing another's pain whilst burying my own
The helping hand needs help
The weeping soul refuses
Sympathy becomes empathy
My own abyss has yet to be filled with joyous celebrations and companionships.
My strength sufficient till now
My resolute will and spirit
Suddenly crashes down
Mental health deteriorates
Emotional stability degenerates
And with a loud yet deafeningly quiet snap
I finally submit to insanity.
Ignorance of my own pain being the poison
Self sacrifice for another being the syringe
I have been tainted
No one but myself to blame
I break
I break beyond repair.
Morals?
Sympathy?
What foolish ideals
I've for so long followed them
Only to end up here
Completely submerged into the same abyss I've been fighting so long against.
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Psychological Contagion
PoetryThis was literally me adding stuff everyday till I got a free verse Like I saw this comment on a story I was reading and thought "hey let's expand on that" So like I just started writing cuz I was bored lmao If you dont understand it Long story shor...