Chapter 5

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August 19th.

11:08 pm

Ever since that day that I met you,

days become slightly better.

I got a little inspiration.

I continued sketching roughly, yet that's just about it.

I still don't have enough passion to drive me into creating something I could be proud of,

but something is definitely better than nothing, right?

I thought that my days would be persistent.

I thought that everyday, I could wake up a little brighter than usual and feel determined every time.

But all the good things last for some time, until something ruins it.

I just learned something about the man I have deep feelings for— Park Jay.

He was dating someone else,

someone that's not me.

It hurt,

and the fact that he, even at this day, was still insisting on loving me,

pains me even more.

I badly want to love him too,

I want to say how much I want him to stay by my side,

but it's wrong,

because someone will get hurt because of my feelings.

I'd rather hurt myself than hurt someone, you know?

so I rejected his declaration of love.

He said he could break up with the girl,

But I stopped him.

If breaking someone's heart means I can have Jay, then I'd rather not have him.

What if I was in the girl's position?

I would've been very hurt.

So even if my heart screams for him, I guess I'll just have to put my hands to my mouth right now.

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