i'd struggle with my words
trying to twist them
into the past
so they could remind you
of when you once
loved me
i'd pull myself apart
trying to find those locations
i'd been hurt
so profoundly
it broke me into a woman
you couldn't see
yourself holding
i'd find myself lost
on clear days
when the sky felt as gone
and distant blue
as that taste on your tongue
when you left me
I'd shatter alone
on sheets that once held
all of the secret hopes
i never dared believe in
but wanted...
god, how i wanted them...
