So it got bad again a few days ago.. Thought we could still be friends like you asked me too, but I don't know anymore. Kinda feels like you're drifting away again. I'm losing my mind over it. I can't hardly breathe, barely eat, and my heart feels like it's in a million pieces. I love you with everything in me and as I sit here barely able to type this out, I wonder, did you ever even want me, or did you do it to make me happy for a short amount of time? I just want the truth. I'm tired of you coming into my life in my darkest moments and lighting me up just to take away my light. You were the reason I kept going, and honestly, you still are. I want to hate you, I want to hurt you as bad as you hurt me, but my heart is too good. I would never wish this on you. I just wish you could feel how I feel for 1 day. Maybe then you'll realize the love I have for you. I pray every night that I don't wake up. I cry myself to sleep. I let my family believe I'm ok, I don't want to bother them, but it's getting to be too much. I just want to disappear. I want to get away. I want to stop hurting. Just please make it stop..
