Heart pounding, mind racing, pure, impassioned adrenalin marching though my veins. I would stop; if only I could. A dream they say! Just a dream: an imagined series of events, the others, they think I'm mad but they would never, ever say it! He's coming, and they don't care. Quickly I dash and leap, cursing at my very being.
IDIOT! MAD! STUPID!
Foolishly I had believed these words were part of who I was – my very being – but I'm not an idiot, I'm not mad, and I am never, ever stupid!
I ran that day. I was faster, stronger and more confident than ever before... but I still ran.
POWEFUL! INTELLIGENT! BRAVE!
Day after day I never understood who I truly was, but now I know, I will always stay true to these words. These words are me.
Longing to know why I ran that day? I ran from 'Him'. He followed me, like a cat who stalks its prey; he was a manifestation of all man's greatest fears.
And he was my brother.
But he was not born into the family, no that would be all too easy for him, neither was he adopted.
He just came, out of the darkness born from the very essence of death itself. My parents?
My parents didn't notice, they just thought that he was theirs and didn't dare to think for one minute otherwise. He put a spell on them I know it! He makes them say things, things they would never say to me if it weren't for HIM!
I saw it. Just once, but I saw his true form and it was... it was...
I saw who he was meant to be and ever since that day I've asked myself, was it me that did this to him? Was it me that I saw that day, trapped, lost, and alone?
He's almost here and I'm grateful that he got my note. I love him. He is my brother, the one who never cried.
He was stronger than me and I always believed he was only there to taunt me, and make me feel like I was the alien in the family, the one that didn't belong, the one... that no one wanted.
The truth is he was strong. Stronger than me anyway; He was there for one reason and one reason alone. He was and always will be my protector. But it's time for me to protect him...
... From me.
I left that day, I left for him. I was the monster, I was the alien, and I was the one that always made things go wrong.
Keep them safe, for me...
