That day

 That day.

People have always considered me as a very genitle girl, nice, generous, sparkling, joyful, full of life. These are the words I heard at my funeral. To tell the truth I never received all those flowers.

I admit, I was a pretty girl, I didn't consider myself like that but since many guys told me I would have no reason not to believe it.

I was born on October 25, 2004, in Orlando, Florida. For this, I can not complain.

Beautiful city.

I entered the world of social media at the age of 13.

Even on social media I was a bit famous. I didn't have a real instagram or tiktok account for example.

I preferred streaming platforms like twitch, or discord, or snapchat. I published a few times on Snapchat, I was part of many servers on discord and I had recently become passionate about the world of video games, to tell the truth, I was more passionate about the computer sector. I would have liked to be a Game Developer or something.

I believed this at least until I was 16 years old when I realized that it would not be bad to be a nurse. Having a basis on the science of our choir, how it works, a bit of psycholgoia...

I always had a confused mind at that age.

As I had said before, many guys had asked me to go out, I did, I had gone out, but the person I would have really fallen in love with, would have been the one who would have loved me veramnete, with whom I could express myself, with whom to exchange gifts, it would have been better even to have things in common to get along a little better. I wanted something serious, but the guys I went out with didn't give me this feeling.

They only gave me the feeling of someone who wanted to spend momentarily with someone, but this was fine with me but I preferred to keep them as friends. Not as boyfriends.

It was Valentine's Day and at school, during these "festive" days, he allowed to make a free hour, where, who wanted, could write a note to his love by writing only the class and to whom it was addressed.

Actually, I didn't write to anyone. Online I had a guy I loved, with whom I always made video calls. I thought he was the man of my life.

That same day, while I was going near the bus stop, a boy in my class had given me a rose, I had thanked him.

Many of my classmates thought of him as a person "obsessed" with me, actually during the lessons, I managed that someone was looking at me and I knew it was him, but I never worried.

I must admit that I do not know exactly what it means to love deeply, because I did not have this perfect feeling with Nath, Nath, or rather Nathan, is the guy with whom I felt online, I had met him on Discord.

One day, the "obsessed" boy, whose name was Kevin, had asked me through messages, to meet us near a bar, not far from my house. Accepted.

I was walking and I had arrived at my destination, I waited at least 25 minutes before he showed up, with irony, without giving weight to what I was telling him, I had said " just a little while ago I was about to leave", I said it with a final laugh.didn't seem to have taken it well

We only stayed there for a few minutes, just 5 minutes, we didn't have much to talk about. While I was about to leave he took me by the wrists making me see that with him he had a small envelope, the one he gives himself to make a gift to someoneSo I decided to put it inside my bag but he stopped me and asked me to open it at that exact moment.

A little agitated, I was opening it, inside there was an envelope, like those of the letters, with the words "I love you. From kevin." with many hearts. I was a little confused, then he was starting to look at me as if to say "move, open it". I was opening it and it just made me shiver.