chapter thirty five:

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amber looked into the crowd and sighed.

how she got through that performance in one piece... she'll never know.

"thank you!" she said into the mic, waving at all the fans and blowing them kisses as she left the stage.

taylor threw his drumsticks into the crowd and nick yelled 'i love you's' to the fans.

as amber walked off the stage she stopped in her tracks when she saw josh standing there and smiling to her softly.

usually he'd hug her tightly, but he kept his distance.

"you were perfect." josh said.
amber smiled, "you say that every time."
"that's because you are perfect." josh said.

amber blushed slightly and turned around to look at the other side of the stage, the other wing.

she'd hoped to have found jake standing there, looking right back at her, his hands in his pockets as he smiled to her and whispered some nonsense about her being a better guitar player than him.

but all she saw was his SG sitting on the rack... a guitar that she can't think about now without thinking of him.

she frowned before turning back to josh.

"i'm probably gonna go get changed and head back to the tour bus." amber said as the two began to walk.
"i'll wait for you outside." josh said.

amber nodded, wishing that he could just let her have her space tonight.

the two split off as amber went into the dressing room and changed back into her normal clothes.

when she opened the door she was instantly greeted by sam, leaning against the wall with one hand in his pocket and the other running through his hair.

he had quickly noticed her and smiled softly to her.

"i hope that now isn't the worst time to talk... i just couldn't help but notice how sad you looked on stage." sam said.
"i looked sad? oh god was it that obvious?" amber asked worryingly.
"oh no, no! i just can tell... like a gut feeling." sam said.

amber nodded, still convinced that other people had noticed how she wasn't herself this performance.

"so... i assume jake got through to you?" sam asked.
"how do you know?" amber asked.
"it's happened before... with another girl." sam said.
"right... josh has mentioned the other girl." amber said plainly.

sam sighed, "look i know they both like you, and i know whoever you choose will make you happy."
"i'm not choosing any of them." amber stated.
"what?" sam questioned, "why?"
"because it'd be too hard, i don't want to have to go back and forth with my decisions and hurt whether of them." amber said, "plus i have some personal experiences that i... i don't know if i've overcome them just yet."

sam nodded, "okay. that's fair." he said, "but i just want you to know that you shouldn't give up on jake... he hasn't ever been like this before, and i can tell you're uncertain, but he's been trying. he's just distancing himself to make sure that what happened before doesn't happen again. he has a difficult way of coping but..." he trailed off.

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