I'm stuck in a fog...
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..
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My mind is racing and it feels blank at the same time,
Its like a metronome only that it ticks off time, off beat,
May I meet the one who would save me from myself? I need peace,
But I've found it,
I just forget that I have it, and I chase a fantasy of greatness, stuck in mindless mazes,
This maze that I'm in has me trapped, has me placed with others chasing a thrill, and now they're bleeding their imaginations out of it,
Thinking they're doubting it,
What are they searching for?
Relief or fame, or some love? Maybe trust, maybe lust, maybe light after dusk,
A little happiness pursued, I think they couldn't reach it.
I'm surrounded by it, the same damn state,
The mind is frigid, turned to fridges, freezing brains,
They're on static,
They're not intact, they're on a swivel, rotating looking for the middle,
For the center of gravity, no, they're falling like missiles,
They're hitting earth like a bomb,
The mushroom clouds emerge,
They choke the animals, and the children are purged,
They seek to break the souls of the youth, but they don't know until it hits them in their face that they're their own worse curse,
I've seen it.
I've lived it.
I never delved too deep, but I know I've been where many would have fallen,
I've seen the drought that's coming,
I see the fog in my mind, and now it seems to be expanding.
But I know that it won't stay this way,
It has to be found through another way, another avenue additional,
Maybe it was conditional, to chase a dream so fleeting that it soon became transactional,
But now my body has been moving on it's own and I hate to say it,
But God was right, the desires the worst of it all,
But I can fight it,
I just hate it all,
The fog is growing, it can't stop at all,
The only way to escape, is to leave the ones drowning in it,
You have to live a life that's great, and take who you can,
Let your loved ones live,
One's with potential let them go, let them fall in,
Indulge in, their cravings till they're bludgeoned,
And wishing that they would've changed.
I should be positive, optimistic,
But I don't see a reason for it,
If I tried to save them all I'd go ballistic,
The fog was breaking me,
I had to escape it.
