It's Normal? ||Trans MTF TommyInnit

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Tommy has been feeling off lately. He feels like he's not who he should be. Trapped, if you will.  He just can't put his finger on it. He keeps thinking about one thing. What if he wasn't male?

~Tommy POV~

No! I'm male! Why did I think of that!? I'm male and always will be!

I was silently scolding myself and I didn't notice when Techno walked into the room.

"Theseus?"

I looked up startled at the sudden noise.

"Y-yah?"
"We've been calling you saying dinners reading for 10 minutes." he states in his monotone voice.
"Oh. I'll be there in a couple."

He left while I got up to head downstairs.

Halfway down the stairs I hear Wilbur.

"Hey Toms!" I slightly cringe at the name.

No! Why did I cringe!? It's my name! My MALE name, Don't be stupid Tommy!

Me calling myself Tommy made me cringe. Of course almost nothing I do goes unnoticed by Wilbur and Techno.

"You okay Theseus?" Techno asked. Technos monotone voice had a small but noticeable layer of concern in it.
"Yep!" I yell in my normal energetic voice putting on a fake smile, "I just thought of some of the cursed shipps of us!" I lied. Everyone, including  me, shuddered at the thought.

" Common boys, time to eat!" Dadza yells.

I sit at the table looking at the delicious food in front of me.

~Technoblade POV~

We were chatting while eating dinner. I look over at Tommy, he's been unusually quiet today and I think Wilbur's also noticing it. He looked so lost in thought.

"Hey Thes, you okay?" This made him look up at us.

"Oh, sorry! Kinda was just thinking." He mumbled

"About what?"  Me and Wil ask at the same time. What can we say, it's a perk about being twins.

"WOMEN, Of course!" He states in his normal voice again.

After that Tommy started joining but I could still see him cringe every time someone called him Tommy or used he/him pronouns.

~Time Skip~

We finished dinner, it's Wilburs turn to do dishes so I take this chance to go see what's wrong with Toms. I ran after Tommy so I could catch up so he wouldn't close the door in my face.

Making it in time, I look at Theseus and ask, "May I talk to you?"

He gives a small unsure nod.

I walk in to see everything a little more messy. He closes the door and we sit on his bed.

"Sooo, What's wrong, Thes?"

~Tommy POV~

What do I say! I can't just be like, "Ohh! I feel like I'm a girl but I'm not and have to keep telling myself I'm male and not to cringe at my MALE name!" That would be ridiculous.

"Toms?" I cringed for what felt like the thousandth time today.

STOP CRINGING! I scolded myself.

Techno clearly noticed the way I cringed.

"What's wrong?" It was weird of him to not say Thes or Toms at the end or beginning.

"N-nothing's wrong, Tech!" I said, well more like yelled but you get the idea.