Good night you text me as a blur you had a jack in one hand and the phone in the other when it popped up I thought it was a scam or maybe it was the ham I had me thinking not straight a month later I decided to say what you wrote to me never knew who he was maybe some guy from a bar or a knight that would save me I was lonely like you we both had the blues the who knew what would start that night with a gal and knight. After I looked you up I knew you was the one that would take my heart and I know the battle would be hard but it was clear you was getting near to me I was told you still needed to heal and improve where you went wrong before and I just was afraid to open up my closet door The story isn't a fairytale we hurt each other and we failed you were such a bowl and I always got knocked off but I got up and never stopped and loving you at each stop we drove each other crazy in love at first it seemed I lost it when you took the babies away for me I love was your biggest gamble and the cards was all messed up in the star it was a joker in my hand and a queen in your heart until one day you became my king we ruled the world in our fantasy. God wanted us to bring the world into his arms because that was his plan but the day I hurt you you reminded me every day after with your streams you played in my heart or on a stage I grab the reins and held on tight as God said it will be all right let me know oh God how far this will go on seconds days months years been apart when we got deeper sign Taurus apart so your insight to this all was God showed you a girl you never knew you thought she was weird and not your type but God made it different for you as odd as she could be you stood back to see her past was rough but also I Hidden angel no one seen she is the diamond in the rough the saying to the sea how mysterious she was to the she never let your mind be then God gave us a dream I woke up early so I could see what you look like sleeping next to me I was feeling delight holding your hand so tight and listening to the birds and herds singing to us I watched your face so peaceful with grace no pain to take no fame to fake. I ran my hand through your hair brushing the grain from the fields you seeded your hands were so rough it showed you worked hard for me I got up and made your coffee and hopes it will wake you up you came out to see what I was cooking so you could eat we went to the porch and sat on the swing holding each other and being happy as can be there was so many acres to see my favorite was your green tractor in the driveway waiting to be seen and I woke up sad to see you wasn't next to me maybe one day it will be real to feel you next to me until then I go through a day and no smile to share and my hand flying through the air my ball cap on so no one could see the sadness in me I don't think you'll ever understand what this did to me and how they grew up without me all I did was hope it would be I didn't do drugs or get drunk like say you lied as you thought there was better off without me with the saying you created for me you never gave to me I wonder how I am supposed to look at you it feels like I'm a scale back-and-forth on love I have for you and I hate it's like this still the man I love so endlessly you're still keeping for me away done I don't know what to do or what you need me to do or say but here I am Lord all opened up I let it all out and it was seen I held it up for you to take the anger out of me as I never knew what it was going to do to me I never knew what it would be to carry the burden and be alone again you see I really believed in never thought as someone who knew me would do that to me so here I am standing trying to understand what was your plan for me as I am weak and have trouble with sleep I don't kneel on my knees to plead my need was simple compared to others but I guess I asked what is waters you haven't parted for me insane keeps attacking me I had hope by now my feet would be in the sand holding my man's hand as you gave me his son to run true and write I know it has been a fail and he won't come back to me I'm here alone realizing what time I lost running after him I couldn't get him to understand your plan for him so I'm in a box again filled with unknowns tears on my pillow's and Projects undone you say because I don't feel complete feeling that I finally fell in love with a man who can't understand me who doesn't want to hold my hand or have plans with me I'm on empty and nowhere to go given up hope that there will be a forever marriage for me I sit in silence at the night no vehicles driving by no crickets cries no thoughts go by wishing you were talk to me I got on my knees so much to pray they are rough and no more to ask for nothing left to say I don't know how to get out of this whole I thought you was going to fix it all and I would be in a better place than I am now but I guess I dug this hole for me when I was just wanting to be home God I thank you for loving me for days I breathe and your protection over me please guide my Waze I'm sorry for the things I say on my bad days I complain when I'm mad or sad just not a good day I get you want me strong fight all the Temptations to just hold on I don't disagree but I am in need as this is hard for me I have been in this desert too long I need your water as I thirst for the I don't know what to trust anymore not even me but the Bible I read comforts me I have lost the dreams that made me smile and it has been a while my dates not noticed my times just pass by I cry at events holidays and moments he has missed with me and seeing little ones I Recloose and despair is pain is harder to bear I stay in here looking fine and numbing it for a bit but inside I'm falling apart I must be blind as I can't find you these door doors are closing in on me and everything I worked hard for another gotten it instead there's nothing I can do I can't go back and I missed the first of everything they don't even know me their dad said be patient with us go slow after four years I know he was my hope and I feel now I'm in a bad dream and can't wake up to him next to me and put in a spot I literally have no choice or control my wants or needs don't matter no more there's no words to say to change this way it won't matter to him anyway he always gets his way or it's the highway my love can't get him back my heart is under attack his promises he had chosen to not feel no looking at the field in a swing with him next to me oh God please fix this for me bring him back to me until then I'll count the shooting stars above me and your stories to be read in the book and Bible I read good night my Lord And for my night my love for you holds tight. There's no more fish in the sea just choose me then you will see a different side of me oh Lord let me wash your feet and fill you close to me as you have always provided for me for prints in the snow I will always know that you are next to me and in the sprain grow clovers for me you are the best father to me you healed what mended to me and you are trust worthy for anyone to know my days and nights are yours help me cry no more my pages you haven't completed no end in sight until one day you'll let me take flight to heavens above where there is all love and no sadness to be found as your words are profound in your book with meetings and lessons to be learned So as I lay my head down tonight give me warm all through the night When morning hits I pray it's one more day closer to the day you fix everything wrong in my life Love always your Rose
