Oneirataxia || Min Yoongi [Oneshot]

Inscription on the wall

It's so cold here...
My body is paralyzed and I can't even blink my eyes properly.
I can feel how slowly the blood moves in my veins. Probably, it's freezing too.

Warm air comes from nowhere and wraps on me.
Now, it's so hot instead.
I want to feel a little breeze.
My back and palms get wet.

Senses, temperature, air...
Everything blends with each other.

I barely realize that i'm standing on the cliff.
Voice of huge waves comes to me and I can't hear anything else.
Due to salty air I can't breathe normally.

Wait... no,

It's my room.

I'm in my own room.

There's only darkness around me.
I'm not able realize what's happening.
But I can only see wall in front of me and a large inscription on it.

"I got lost in the darkness.
Sea waves compacted me."

23.10.2022

I can recognize my script.
I with i know what forced me to do this kind of nonsense.
Otherwise, I wouldn't even think about it.

***

Shining light.

I'm forced to close my eyes as tight as possible.
I have no idea why or where I am.

I open my eyes with difficulty.
Light disappears as quickly as it came.
I watch to familiar environment.

I'm in my room.
And i look as new inscription.

"It blinds me.
It's coming!"

24.10.2022

I'm trying to stick scattered fragments on each other with no success.
My whole body wraps in extreme pain,
Like it's trying to consist all of my cells.
My mind gets blurry and only thing that goes in my brain is to how this all happens.
Am I going insane?

***

I LOST IN CHAOS.

I'm diving into a bottomless hole.
The wind crashes on my back and causes me to have an excruciating pain.
I'm reaching the bottom, which i know doesn't even exist. As much as I get close to it, it gets more separated from me.
Then, I lose the perception of the space.
Get stuck in one place.

I take awareness in my room again.
I stare at the wall, painted with new writings.

"I fell into the gap.
Space swallowed me!"

25.10.2022

I'm shaking.
Min Yoongi, what the hell is your brain doing to you?
I scream an incomprehensible sounds at myself with an anger embracing all of me.
Who can explain this all?
I can't remember me doing any of these.
But I'm completely sure that it's my handwriting.

***

I want to sleep.
But I feel wave inside me again.
It comes from feet and slowly captivates me.
This is not a fear, neither cold, not frustration...
I'm calm.
I like that strange touch.
Soothing voices.

However, there're screaming, whispering, singing.
Seems like myself is trying to tell me something that I can't remember.
Although, I don't want to know anything.

I'm flying somewhere again. this time it's shining sky.
I'm surrounded with clouds.
I have no ability to think about anything, only feeling these emotions fits within my capabilities.

Then, suddenly, everything just disappears.
As if there never has been anything.

And again...
It's just my room.
And new script.

"The way to the world of pleasure..."

26.10.2022

All of my brain cells are damaging from the unclear information of previous days.
Are these only happening in my dreams?
Or it's reality?
The reality which threw me in the fairy tale?

***

Large chains are wrapping on me.
They are covered with ice and thorns.
They're making me unable to breathe.
Still trying to get rid of them are useless.

"Time froze me!"

27.10.2022

I went close to the wall and touched writings.
They are as hot as lava.
And before at least one thought could appear in my head something erupted from them.

I'm losing ability to move.

There are shining lights around me, but only thing i can see is an infinite darkness.

It's cold here, but my body is sweating due to the heat.

I can hear, how strong the waves are crashing on the rocks.
I smell salty taste.

Familiar and unfamiliar sounds, senses, emotions, thoughts, memories and feelings are fighting all around me.

Whispering, screaming, singing are ringing in my ears.

I'm falling an the void and flying in the sky at the same time.

Shining is blinding me, but i get used to darkness.

I feel calm.

I'm scared.

Time is flying.

Time stops.

Things are getting blended in front of my eyesight.

Vision is blurring.

Surface underneath me is destroying.
Perception of the space is vanishing.

Only one thought is surviving in my mind.

I'll be stuck here forever!

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Short story about Yoongi.
If any of you got confused about what was happening and what this all was about, I'll say, that Yoongi had schizophrenia and everything was only in his head.

Thanks for reading and let me know your impressions in the comments.
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