Im lost
Im high up in the sky
Im looking behind a pair of eyes
That do not feel like mine,
Im sitting on a chair and contemplating
Whether to say it all
Or to write it down
So I visited downstairs
Touched the lips of my host
Delicate, however they never touch
They're crowded with words
And im scared to fall out .
Im lost
In which body part am I
Matter of fact, in whose body am I
And why are they dreaming wide awake
I've memorized more faces than i could
And forget their names more than i should,
I've betrayed and was told to pray it away
I've been betrayed by whom i pray to
I've been betrayed while praying
And been silenced for a decade .
But who would believe me
I've lied once , but to them my tongue is black , i drool blood and murder flowers.
I am the body that dreams while its wide awake ,
And in my dream
I beg my mother to eat me and birth me again
To wipe my sins and make me blank
To allow me to feel love and to be comprehend ,
But my mother refuses to birth me again.
My mother refuses to even be friends .
My mother refused me when i was just 10.
So now im only left with eating myself
Praying in the opposite direction
Maybe then he'll see me
Maybe then he'll notice I've been betrayed ,
Maybe then I'll sleep and dream
Of a mother's love .
Dream of a mother that does not play pretend.
