his name jax devon swan adopted brother to bella swan. Nobody knows whats happened to him but it left him unable to sleep. it consumed with nightmares and the trauma of the lost and forgotten. left with powers that people want to hunt him down so wh...
Feelings are just a waste of time. they are just present to feel how life takes you on a path of happiness or darkness with a mystery of where to turn. all that pain is held tight unable to break free because people are afraid so the darkness swallows them whole until your unable to breath. unable to fight through the dark ominous cage they had built up because everything they have gone through had made it impossible to gather thoughts to ask for help. They try but there mouth moves but unable to get their breath out to ask for help to ask for guidance as people refused to give it to them as a child and this is his story, the story of jax devon crimson adopted to the house of one rene swan and her daughter bella swan.
as bella says one last goodbye to rene, he held on to his head phone to listen to older by alec benjamin. His head lowered as he listen to the comfort of his songs. He hasn't been here long, being adopted by rene only a year ago as she felt sorry for a teenager to be homeless with no home to go to so she wanted to give him the best three years until he turn 18. Being 16 now and she doesnt know what his life was like but he refused to tell her and she understood that. he had looked up to see bella with a cactus in her hand saying goodbye knowing it was a good idea to move to forks washington to live with charlie. He hasn't met charlie however bella only talks positive with the occasional awkward silence.
Jax pov:
i hear phill say "i love you both but we've got a plane to catch" over the sound of my songs i watch as bella travel to the car with renee on her trail she gets in the car and we head to the airport
time skip by johnlock :)--------
we reach our destination seatle airport bella holds onto me and drags me over to who i presume charlie swan. as we reach towards him it wasnt who i expected he was awkward but had a kind smile. "hey char-dad" bella said awkwardly while giving him a side hug. she then turned her head towards me i held my hand out "erm hi im guessing your charlie swan my names jax" as he shook my hand "yeah never knew renee would adopt heh she was never the kind of person" charlie said while rubbing his neck. bella looked between our encounter and decided to butt in "well how about we head home" bella said cutting into the silence once she said that charlie sprung to life and grabbed our bags and headed to the cruiser. i took my headphones out and decided to play my playlist as i stared out the window heading to forks
once we got there i was out of my delusened space in my head and helped charlie with the bags without saying a word with my head phones still playing songs.
he showed me my room and once he left i laid in my bed after closing the door and went on my phone i wasnt there long since bella dragged me out and headed downstairs where we went outside to be greeted by two men i dont recognise, one in a wheelchair and one who looks constipated.
"bella you remember billy black" i can tell she doesnt remember him but i decide not to say anything just standing awkwardly charlie guides his attention to me "and this is the adopted son of renee, jax" billy looks up towards me "nice to meet you jax" he said while i just nodded and he guides his attention to bella " yea your looking good" she says while charlie was giving me concerned looks but i pay it no mind "still dancing" billy had said
i was lost in my thoughts but once i gained my senses i looked up to see them heading inside so i do the same and head to my room i finally took in the room it was nice and decided to unpack all of my things and headed to bed ready for the school day ahead
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it was now night time i changed in my pjamas which concised of just some jogging bottoms and headed to sleep into a hateful dream that i wish to forget
dream:
it was pitch black as if death was in his embracing arms, no light in sight as a voice could be heard "its your fault there dead " a voice echoed "its your fault YOURS thats the reason your parents are dead" i cover my ears to lock out the voices but it only got louder as it taunted me in the darkness of my nightmare. It never stops "you lost control you are the reason everyone DIED that day" i started to get nauseous finding the image and witnessing the aftermath of the disaster.I couldn't stop it.I-i just could stop what happened that day. It was there fault for getting in my way
my minds starts to drum with a thousand musical notes banging against my head. giving me a headache as i try to fight the images in my head of the day it happened. The one I refuse to talk about.I just couldn't talk about it without feeling sick to my stomach knowing I had done that. finding it impossible to get the picture out of my head, i start to scream as the pain is excruciating like a thousand pins knocking on my brain.
then i woke up and checked the time 3.05amguess ill just stay awake, i stand up and head to my drug stash that was in my books. that i hid away from everyone so it doesn't get taken away from me and got out some weed rolled it up into a single joint and started to smoke it,open g the window to let the smell out and to get the thoughts that plagued my mind to leave and never come back. To make myself numb of emotions so I don't get used ever again.
