𝕮𝖑𝖊𝖆𝖓 𝖘𝖑𝖆𝖙𝖊 • 𝖘𝖔𝖚𝖐𝖔𝖐𝖚

Chapter one

TW: SEWERSLIDE, SH
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So much time, i have spent so much time wasting my life away.

I put the blade to my wrist.

i am a useless human being.

I move it up my arm slowly.

blood trickles in a sharp line.

I need to stop.

Cut after cut, i was probably there for an hour, staining my pale arms red.

i left the bathroom and walked into my bedroom lying on my bed.

such a useless human being.

I fall asleep.

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In the morning, i awake to the bright sun burning my eyes and a clock ringing in my ears. My arms hurt, but i ignored it.

I walk into the bathroom and change my bandages before changing into my uniform and readying myself for school.

I look in the mirror.

What an ugly sight.

My head moves to the clock.

7:04 am.

I have around an hour before school starts, i groan and lie down on my bed.

"i wanna skip today," i mutter to myself.

I checked my phone

1 missed message.

Chuuya: Are you gonna be at school today?

I reply back 'yes' Im only going for him if im being completely honest.

I leave my room, might as well take a walk, my father lies in the living room, multiple bottles of alchohol scattered around him.

"Shit." I walk up to him, passed out cold vomit stains on the couch. I grab the bottles and throw them in the trash, I hate my father hes the worst.

I put on my shoes and leave the house, the crisp fall air making me shiver as it touches my fair skin, i feel my arms begin to tingle as the cuts rub up against the bandages i let out a slight groan to myself as i leave for the direction of my school.

I stare at the ground as i walk, my brown worn-out shoes moving one after another. I hate it, I hate everything.

As i reach school, i see kids laughing and playing, the second a kid walks up to talk to me, i put on a smile, and my usual act.

"Hey dazai," a familiar voice speaks from behind me. I spin around.

"chuuya!" I jump onto him laughing as i watch him trample and fall to the ground.

"Ugh, get off of me, ya fat cow," those words stung worse than my arms.

"oh uh sorry..." It was obvious he noticed the quick change in my attitude, I suck in my stomach as far in as it can go.

"Sorry I took that too far." He patted my shoulder, I sighed but chose to accept the apology. It was not every day you got to hear the famous. chuuya, apologize. After that, he started rambling on about some new hat he got at an old antique shop, i try to listen, but i still tune him out unintentionally.

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First chapter whoohoo! i hope you liked this. i will try to stick to a normal writing schedule, any tips/constructive criticism would be nice!