It's no beat left just
Emptiness done fell
Back into old ways
Not into relationships
At the moment don't
Want to waste no more
Time still no beat to my
Heart save me hope you'll
Not here too lie like the rest
Still in disbelief honestly should've
Done better blame myself honestly glad I'm finally free happy to be alive again still in disbelief I lost my heart beat can't believe I gave my heart too all these women who just wanted to stomp on my soul dancing on my heart leaving me for dead no more beats left in my heart give me CPR somebody save me from this heartache my heart to pure for this abuse tell me why they all seem to be the same keep running into the same heartache won't go back don't like rekindling will never go back cause I'm lonely or cause it seems safe once you're unsafe to me it's no reason to do anything at this point
Don't even want a conversation from you shit I'm good all together honestly hope all is well for you I've been away taking my time healing & becoming stronger not shrinking myself no more living stress free of late no anxiety nor depression not worried sleeping great now I'm working on something special it's going to be something I don't usually do with my writing so excited to share with you all soon I'm happy I'm finally released everything I'm at peace my skin clearing up trying to stay on track with everything I have set up for myself it's crazy how sometimes you gotta mentally crash to get you back motivated I wasn't focus my mind was everywhere my heart was leading me into bad situations seeking love from all the wrong places not being able to connect with anyone letting insecurities & doubt play a key role in my life making bad decisions trying to see good in people who showed me time after time it was time to let them go had to stop being around a lot of people I miss a lot of my friends they understand my journey thank you all for respect my decision it's only for awhile maybe two years or more might've found a place out of state still wanna move to London for a year
I'm chasing something impossible
my heart races every time from the thought of it conversations with my brother telling him I still be having that feeling like something great is ready to happen in my life I'm just two steps away I can feel it in my soul picking all the pieces of my heart up listening to Adele I fuck with her voice I've been ona R&B vibe lately just listening to shit like 6lacc
giveon old weekend not too much crazy kill kill stuff just slow music
And my thoughts on a notepad no more pain so it's time to create let you travel through my thoughts & bring all my ideas on these pages shit nigga I'm growing my hair back I don't what I'm doing with it only time will tell I'm not releasing no more stories on Wattpad just the last two projects & that's it shit I hope y'all hearts are healed & you're seeking peace of mind staying away from drama & not overthinking and not being a hoarder of your past let it go it happened already what are you going to do today to make a change in your life be the change not just want it never to late to start over just free yourself of negativity and any doubt you may have remove it removed myself from everybody i don't want friends not interested in no relationships shit I'm only interested in me & becoming a better human being living by morals, and principles recognizing my whole mind change the patterns in my steps change the way my thoughts were being processed letting go of old habits changed my whole energy in a matter of months I'm not perfect but I'm trying my hardest giving it one hundred and ten percent respecting myself more & everything around me being more appreciated of life not living so reckless no more.
Yours truly
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