"UNTITLED"

➤[005] :: Haileyville Ravîox

I was about to close my eye's when suddenly Tyler’s phone rang.

“Hello?”

Tulog na ang iba nami’ng mga kaibigan.
Kami nalang yata ang gising.
Hindi ako makatulog dahil hindi ako sanay na matulog sa ibang lugar.

“You two are still up? ” mahina lang ang boses ni Tyler pero rinig na rinig ko ito dahil tahimik ang buong kwarto.

I bit my lower lip. I wonder who's the person he's talking with?, bakit ganitong oras ay tumatawag pa sila sakaniya?

“I miss you both” I heard him laugh a bit.
It's like he's having fun talking on the phone.
Sino kaya i’yon?

Ilang minuto ang nakalipas at naging tahimik ulit ang buong kwarto. Naka ilang buntong hininga na ako ngunit hindi parin ako makatulog kaya naisipan ko nalang na lumabas muna.

I was shocked when Tyler sat beside me. His hands are in his pocket. He's wearing a white hoodie and pajamas. I bit my lower lip and looked away.

He's still the man I love five years ago. Nothing change, it's still him, but I know it's not me anymore.

“Bakit gising kapa? ”He asked.

I gulped. I'm trying my best to stop myself from shaking. Ayokong manginig habang kausap sya.

“I can't sleep, hindi yata ako sanay na sa ibang kwarto matulog. How ’bout you?”

“Tumawag i’yong mag ina ko.. ”

May kong anong kirot aking nararamdaman. I don't know what I to feel. Should I be happy for him?, may pamilya na siya, buo sila, masaya na siya. Should i be happy for the man I love?

“You look so happy” I said.

He nodded. “I am”

Hindi na ako muling nagsalita pa hanggang sa siya na mismo ang nag salita.

He looked at me. I'm not looking at him, I can't look at him, it still hurts and I don't want to cry in front of him. Alam kong iiyak ako kapag tumingin ako sa mga mata niya.

“Thank you”he said.

“For what? ”

“For pushing me away.. ”I bit my lower lip. Tumingin ako sa gilid ko para hindi nya makita ang nagbabadya’ng luha ko. It's still fvcking hurts. Masakit parin talaga . “If you didn't pish me, hindi ko makilala si Diana, the mother of my child.. thank you, Trish. Kung hindi mo ginawa ’yon, hindi ko makakamit ang kasiyahang meron ako ngayun.”

I wiped my tears, “I d-did great ba?”

“Yes, you really did great..... Pushing me away was the best decision you've made”

I know.

I envy him, I envy him because he's happy now. He's now leaving the life in his dreams. But me?, I'm still suffering because of all the decisions that I made. I'm still here, loving him even there's zero chance anymore.

“I'm so happy for you Tyler” I said, yes, I'm happy for him. All those pain that I've caused, all the sufferings, i'm happy for him. I'm happy that he's happy now.

Thank you for being part of my life, I'm so proud of you, proud ako’ng nakaya mo’ng mag mahal ulit kahit na nasasaktan kana sa’akin dati.

“I hope your happy too Trish” ani niya.

How?, how Tyler? , how can i be happy knowing that you already had a family? , knowing that we can't be together again.

Fvck this feelings, it's still him, kahit pinagtabuyan kona siya noon ay siya parin hanggang ngayun.
                        
⎙—Ravîox [Skylerwritera]

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