Just out a habit, every 11:11 to one day, be with the man she always adore. Even as the years passed, even as she grew up, she still made the same wish.
Even though her posters left her walls, and she packed up and went to college and that man wasn't on her mind as much anymore. He wasn't her main priority but she still made that same wish.
One morning, she sat in her dorm and turned the TV on. The first thing she saw was,
"Jeon Jungkook of Bangtan Boys to be married today."
That surprised her.
And everything started to flow back once again. Her heart ached for him. She looked at the clock and it read 11:11. But before she could make her usual wish, she stopped because he was getting married today.
Her wish didn't come true so she pulled the blanket over herself and a tear rolled down her cheek but the clock still read 11:11 so quickly, she crossed her fingers, wiped her tears and said to herself..
"I wish him happiness"
***
Her heart was pounding as the news roam across the country about Jungkook.
Sitting on a computer chair, staring at her computer screen, she tried to wipe her tears behind her hand.
It was unstoppable.
Her tears kept flowing like there's no tommorow. She didn't know she would cry so much from someone who don't even know her.
However, it's been a long time since she remembered the day she started stanning these boys, this boy.
It's so glorious, the momentum was incredible and everything sparkled. They were her inspiration; in school and in life. She still have their posters, albums and photos.
Remembering back then when everything is awesome and free. Oh, you're probably wondering why she's crying right now? No, not because they're freaking hot, or freaking handsome or freaking awesome.
It's because today...
Jungkook just got married.
She thought she could handle it but she can't deal with the pain she's suffering right now. So she stood up, rushing towards her bathroom.
Without hesitation, she pulled out a bottle of pills in the cabinet.
She stares at her shaking palms. She sat at the edge of the bathtub as she place the capsules near her mouth
It's the right thing to do right?
She lied down, staring at the ceiling,
All she ever wanted was Jungkook's happiness, but she never find her's.
Looking at the clock, it read 11:10
Jungkook, I loved you.
And then she swallowed the pills that will make her sleep, eternally.
I'll be waiting on the sky for you, Jungkook.
Still, she managed to look at the clock and it read 11:11. This time, as she took her last breath, she mouthed the words,
"I hope you're happy, Jungkook."
As she closes her eyes, tears flow all over her cheeks. She was smiling.
She thinks she has it all.
Simply but in a different way. Knowing that Jungkook is her happiness.
She herself fills her chest with air one last time and breathing out a galaxy which she define as happiness.
~fin~
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