A NOTE FROM MY DIARY

Mere Dil Ki Batein (dated: 6/14/2023)

I've seen him like I know when he's peaceful and happy and calm, and when he's not. I can sense the people I love. Who is close to me even if they tell me or not does not matter. I do not know if it's good or bad but it never felt like a blessing.  I can always sense smth bad coming toward me. And It makes me sad unintentionally. I saw him in my dream he was crying badly mne uthtey sath usko text kiya mera dil pareeshan hogaya thaa mujhey pta chal jata hai jab woh pareeshan hota hai pta nh kese mgr pta chal jata hai. Bhtt takleef hoti usko kisi pareeshani mn dekh kar or phir is bat se bhi ke hum itney ziadah qareeb hain ke koi bhii itna qareeb nh or phir itna hi fasla hai ke jitna fasla zameen or aasmaan mn hai. Mera dil chahta hai mn roti hun duaen mangti hun per woh sunta hi nh kehti hun usse ke meri yaaddasht chali jaye mn bhool jaon sab kuch lekin shayad mere liye zindagi bhar inhiin yadoun ki aag mn jalney ki aziyat likhi hai.mn theek nh hun jo insaan 14 14 ghantey soyeee kya woh theek hota hai jo insaan 14 ghantey soney ke bad bhii neend mn rahey kya woh theek hosakta hai jo insaan khud ke sath hi moujad na hoo bat kertey kertey bhool jaaye woh insaan kese theek hosakta hai?? Ab usne keh tw diya abhi I am thinking I will discuss han mn hun ik cheez ko lekar disturb or mne barey araam se keh bhi diya ok lekin ab mera sar phat raha hai ab meri saans atak rahi hai ab mera dam ghuth raha hai mera mind cease hogaya hai q k ab intezaar ki aziyat shuru hochuki hai.