The Exile's Forbidden Mate (Updating)

Prologue: Wishful Thinking

Contains lots of spoilers for Blood Ransom. Please don't read this story if you're not done reading Series 1.

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Prologue: Wishful Thinking

I was born in the wrong world. I've always thought about that since I started to learn the stupidest thing that ever existed. Love. This alternate world was divided into four kingdoms, ruled by different lords-a wizard, a vampire, and a werewolf. Whereas an existing law under which abomination is not allowed to happen and werewolves are not allowed to love vampires dominates generation by generation. And perhaps, that was the problem in this world. It cared too much about whom you fell in love with but never about why—probably unaware that the why always matters.

But why I couldn't stop wanting something I shouldn't have?

They say the mind is attracted by things, not within our reach. There is a fascinating seduction in whispers that we do not find in screamed words. You may have everything that others crave, but your heart longs for the one thing that you cannot have.

I'm not sure, but there's a tactile thrill to seeking the impossible, to do what's forbidden. Masarap ang bawal ika nga. That feeling when the more you were told to stop, the more you become persistent and pushy.

Perhaps, it is because more than the forbidden experience, it is this freedom that I enjoy, and it is this feeling that tempts me to push over the boundaries of everyday experience and taste the surge of adrenaline.

I stared at the blood seeping from my hand. I can't feel anything about it. No pain, no itchy feeling. I was utterly numb while I waited for it to heal on its own. I am not capable of feeling pain; I am numb. I am not afflicted with any kind of severe pain. I worked hard to ensure that I would never be vulnerable. I am strong—I am Lilianna Arioch Silverie. And being me means being powerful. Iyon lamang ang tumatak sa akin habang lumalaki ako.

"Lilianna," My bored eyes look in the direction of that voice.

"Lilianna, come here!" Damn that nosy dog. I groaned as I stood up. Kasalukuyan akong nakaupo sa bridge ng pond dito sa likuran ng bahay ko. I fixed my clothes as I walked inside my house. Katatapos ko lang mag-training. Nasugatan ako sa huli kong atake sa ginawa kong training standee dahil tunay na blade ang inilagay ko rito pero balewala iyon sa akin.

Naabutan ko ang tumatawag sa akin na nasa kusina. He was preparing something, nang makita ako ay ngumiti siya sa akin. He's been visiting me every week. Minsan naman ay isinasama niya ako sa tinitirahan niya sa kabilang bayan, sumasama ako dahil gusto ko siyang makasama at dahil na rin sa nakakabagot dito.

"Hey little girl, how are you? Nagensayo ka ba ulit?" he asked, and his smile irritates me. Little girl.

"Stop calling me little girl, I am a woman already!" He's maybe older than me, but I am already a woman. I've been living for a thousand years.

"You will always be that little girl to me, Lilianna. Now come here, kainin natin 'tong cake na binili ko." kumunot ang noo ko at tiningnan ang chocolate cake na binili niya. He placed one slice on my plate, tahimik naman akong tumungo roon at naupo sa harapan ng cake na nilagay niya for me.

"Why are you always here, Azriel? You're supposed to go back to where you came from, stop bothering me if you can't even stop treating me like your daughter." I'm harsh, I know that. It is not my personality to sugarcoat my words. Hindi sa ayoko sa kaniya, naiinis lang ako na pumupunta siya rito at itinuturing akong bata, na para bang anak niya ako kahit hindi naman. He wasn't even there when I was a kid. Dalaga na ako ng makilala ko siya. At naiinis ako kasi gusto ko siya pero hindi iyon ang tingin niya sa akin. Alam niya 'yon, pero heto siya at itinuturing ako na para bang wala siyang alam sa nararamdaman ko.