Love
How long shall it take for me to find love?
Oh how I dearly crave it.
Oh how I deeply yearn for it.
When shall I find my true love?
A love brimming with happiness, hope, romance, and excitement.
How shall I ever get that?
A love that keeps me warm even in the coldest winter blizzards.
When shall I ever get that?
A love that shines bright in the darkest of nights.
Why can't I ever get that?
I ponder as I keep trying to desperately reach it with my own two hands.
When shall I ever find a love where I don't grow apart from?
When shall I ever find a love where I don't get bored of?
As I pray to a non-existent God before me.
I want someone to love me, hold me, kiss me, caress me, and care for me like no other.
But I can't seem to get it.
Everytime I meet that someone who is willing to do it for me,
We part ways at the end anyways.
Is it perhaps because of me?
Or is it because of them?
Is it because I can't appreciate the things they give me,
Or is it because they aren't good enough?
Why must I always drift apart from people?
Do I despise love?
But I yearn for someone's touch,
But I yearn for someone's love.
Why do I lose feelings at the end?
Why am I so picky?
Why is it so hard to commit?
Why am I like this?
Why do I keep getting sick of it in the end?
Why do I contort in disgust everytime I get it in the end?
Why does it look so magical in my head?
Why?
I don't mind a love where it hurts anymore,
I want someone to love and hold dearly.
I don't care if they hurt me,
I want to experience caring for someone dearly.
Even for a little bit,
I want to feel truly happy.
Even for a little bit,
I want that same feeling I feel in my head with someone.
But why can't I?
