Agony.
Eternal Pain.
A Drug,
An Addiction,
My Relief,
My Heart,
My very Soul
Wrapped, in a web of Agony.
Reality is as reality tells a whisper over a cold shoulder,
Songs of the siren guiding thoughts foreign and long diving Depths,
The Eternal Abyss, voices in the dark sway Personalities apart,
Wrong is my Heart to the knowledge of my thoughts,
My pale faced friend in the moon knows of my hearts secrets,
Stars twinkle with little details, crystallized tears form paragraphs in their trails.
The mirrors don't lie to eyes.
The mirrors show the little boy stuck playing with toys,
Nothing more than background noise to peers that shunned him for years,
Parents act like deafness is effective, meanwhile the son they raised grew a faulty perspective. Torn between where to call home.
Lines were drawn,
Lies like webs have been spun around the bastard son born of both shadow and sun.
Limbs of Uncertainty wrap around my core,
Bringing not just anxiety,
Regret and drunken arrogance of wishing the moment never could come to end,
Only Within her eyes eternity dancing across the stars,
I can feel her Halo,
Her flaws are written all over.
But a heart as Pure and demanding of a Halo, Beauty in the Heart unfolds in the waning hours of night,
Dreams meet side by side a warmth in bed by the soul fire alight.
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What has felt like nothing but Eternity,
A constant episode of manic isolation dilutes my psyche falling in and out of realities without care or causation,
A ghost swirled itself around my very soul,
The Rage
The Rage of gutting my own Heart out,
Disemboling the very Love in life I wove into the cracks of an already Broken Heart,
I Prayed for it,
Honored it,
Betrayed it;
All are familiar with losing a loved one,
Few understand the sight of when a Soul forged from the kisses of a thousand Stars, forms into a fragile Diamond of Light and Beauty; only to succumb, shattering from the pressure of a Forsaken world.
Only when Darkness falls can I tell the stars about you,
They hold my secrets,
They know of the Melancholy violin playing in my heart, plucking strings of heartbroken swan songs to my own heart's content,
Regret showed me how to Love,
Arrogance left me Scorned,
Plagues fester my mind
Shadows hide until I don't even know it,
All this heartbreak inside leaves me below it; Apathy written by Memories photographs frames of Agonyp in a moment that can never explain the intimacy of what would be a calamity.
Beloved, to my own regret,
Fog swelled into my head,
I became Lost
Warmth trickled away as the amber that lit flew and fluttered fading from my lonely world,
Here I sit in the bleakness of night fire alight as the sun drifts down from sight.
I'm reminded of the world where I did see light.
You were the thing that lifted my weights the devil cursed me with,
We both forgot they were cursed
Hate from within infected the small things that annoyed me without knowing I'd grow to miss them, efforts put forth shamed by the radiance of my brain.
Everything came from within.
All I see are Reflections seen everywhere even when clocks are gone,
Letters meant to be burnt only burn their way deeper into the vault,
I am paralyzed by the kiss you should've never given me by the river.
I stared at you all night, starstruck by the eyes that held a thousand worlds,
Some would say I was smitten by love at first sight,
That the darkness had found its light,
Truthfully it was farther than that for I had truly seen an angel.
I still see her, everywhere.
My Heart, my soul, enshrined to her my own thoughts, wrapped inside a cloth, memories I had once forgot.
Much is lost when both Angels and Devils cut your throat with lies,
Soaked in blood, bound in chains of sin am I,
Sinking closer to searing hellfire, the many chains of hell bounding my blood to endless fates.
I've forgotten who I am
I don't know who I am.
I don't know who I am.
Hallucinations and glimpses of the past life's that I lived, have come to pass.
I have forged who I am,
Dark have been my dreams of late.
A soul once broken forged anew.
For now my scars bathe in the sun as I face the myth I have created from shadows within me with Wrath in one hand and Order the other.
In Chaotic storms of complete Darkness I found the Light.
He is my Monster. My shadow
Born from Eternal and Everlasting Hellfire burning Passions into my veins
Dark Fires forged desires giving horror a meaning
Contorted of every shred of agony I ever felt, sin of thought word and flesh,
His footsteps bear the weights of doom,
Demonic with virtuous intentions
Even the brightest of Hopes are questioned to his path of darkness
Monster of all Monsters
A Monster with Noble feelings
Death tried to claim me, Fate tried to defile me, but it was Love that broke me.
For she never killed my innocence.
I did.
