Do You Like Becoming What You Hate? (B.E)

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My love for her was unattainable to reach. At least that's what I was thinking. But she doesn't seem to think the same about me. It sucks. But life is unfair. I just hate that so much. I just hate it so much how life is so damn unfair.

Yesterday,  I had gone outside for the first time in months. My plan was to water the roses and all the flowers we planted together surrounding the house.

I remember the day we planted them so vividly. We laughed and talked about how if we watered them together everyday. Our love would seep into the seeds and cause the plants to grow up and around our house.   "Our house". 

As I made my way to the side of the house yesterday. Preparing to water what I haven't paid attention to for months on end. I was stopped in my tracks. I suddenly had forgotten how to breath.

"I killed them! I killed them! She's gone! And I can't bring her back!" I sobbed falling to my knees barely even getting the sentence out clearly.

                     No roses. No flowers.  No her. 
              Don't I just hate how life is so unfair.