i miss you.
three words that i wanted to tell you
especially at times like these when i feel i have nobody on my side.
your hugs are my comfort
MY INSTANT STRESS BUSTER
i feel like running back to you
but i should not.
i feel like talking to you and telling you everything that has been happening with me
but i should not.
i feel like going out with you on a date talking about random things that we used to do, silly things that we plan to do then laugh about it because it was too stupid to happen
but i should not.
i feel like saying sorry for everything that has happened and just claim that every single thing that happened was my fault, then we would kiss and make out and move on together like we used to do
but i should not.
we could have gone together in a movie like what i did with a friend last night. horror/ thriller/ comedy just like what you wanted but i was too scared to try.
we could have gone together in that sweet summer paradise, having fun under the sun, enjoying our sun kissed bodies, basked ourselves in life threatening activities just like we both wanted, planned for a very long time
we could have gone together in a church, yours and mine, prayed to God together, thanked Him for all the blessings that we have received and will receive together, then ask for guidance for our precious relationship, but im still grateful to Him
regrets, longing, emptiness, insecure, anger for me and you
if only we had given a chance for each other to cool down and talk about things, then we could have been still together
if only you had waited like what i have planned, then we could have been together in one company, most probably married and starting our lives together
if only i had given more patience and swallowed my pride and the pain that i felt, then we could've been the same couple that everyone is envious of as how we think they are.
but maybe things happen for a reason
life has turned up another chapter for us to live. apart
No cool offs
No break ups
Just. one. happy. relationship
promises were made to be broken. just like ours
i hope that u are feeling the same way as i do.
i hope that you are having a good time with everyone you wanted to be with
i hope that you are having the time of your life.
i hope that you feel like suffering, longing to be with me, your best. girlfriend.ever
i know that i shouldn't feel this
it has been almost a year
that i have lived without
i hate to say this
but
i. miss. you
