You once imprinted
Your words through actions
Actions that led to bruises
Buries that led to hate
Hate towards myself
Myself as in I
I didn't forgive you
Still haven't
Still waiting
Waiting for change
Even though change
Isn't happening
As I move towards this life
With or without you
Her as in mother
Me as in I as in daughter
Him as in or was or could still be
Father
No presence
Just absent through 16 years
Of me still being alive
Haven't seen
Haven't heard
You in quite a while
Father as in dad
Dad as in daddy
Daddy as in where are you?
You haven't been back
Back as in behind me and
Everything else in the past
Past as in forgotten or not mentioned
Past as in left or leaving
Past as in memory
Where are you daddy!
I can't say I miss you
You as in he
he as in him
Him as in no name
We won't
We won't mention
We don't speak of you
You as in father
Father as in dad
Dad as in Sterling
Your name
Spoken here or three or so
Years ago
Ago as in time will tell
But time hasn't said a thing
Are you alive
Or are you dead
How would I know
We haven't talked in
16 years
No number to contact you
I wish I could call you
Not to hear your voice
But for you to hear mine
To know I'm still your little girl
Girl as in me as in I
To know that I'm still waiting for you
You to come back
Back as in here to come get me
Where are you daddy!
I want you here
To come pick me up
Not to sway me in your arms or hold me close
but to take me with you
Away from here
Here as in Missouri
Missouri as in state
State in the United States
This is not my home!
Here as in where I stand for
The past seven years
Isn't my home
I wanna go home with you daddy
I want you daddy!
I miss you daddy
Miss as in I still want you
You as in father
Father as in dad
Dad as in daddy that
I call my own
Ashley Grace Wells
You named me
Don't you remember
Remember us
Us as in me and you
You as the father of me
Me as in Ashley the little girl
You named
Why did you leave
Hopefully you still remember me
Hopefully I'm not a memory
Memory as in left behind
Behind as in forgotten
Forgotten as in past
Past as in moving on
I'll be waiting for you daddy
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PoetryGrowing up without a father figure in my life wast always easy nor was it helpful since I didn't have a mother figure either my dad got deported When I was three back to outside of America and my mother struggled with drugs an alcohol. I had to lea...
