The Diary of a Wildflower

Under the Northern Lights

I know that you are sorry, and you counted on what's right, you thought you had it covered, but she came from out of sight.
I know that you are tortured, and you are reaping what you sow.
I know that men learn later and it's always hard to grow.
I know you wish for better days; for me, to want, to need, to stay.
I know you want me to forgive but I warned you twice that this was it.
I won't be fooled, not once again.
I'll take my bags and leave nothing.
Yeah - my heart belongs to you, the thought of living without you.
It tears me apart and I don't want to see you cry, alone and in the dark
I make the choice to stay-away,
The only thing, you have to say is "I don't understand", if I'm gone; she will move on.
She would have played her hand.
So I take a chance and stay away.
Counting all my blessings.
Waiting like a wild fire,
For her to learn her lesson.
I know you need, you want me too.
Forgive, believe, you'd never do.
You'd take the chance and make it new,
The same romance, just different views.
And what would be of your disgrace, to think you could not replace but walk inside and see her face, another round gone to waste, another failed test.
You'll find some part of me to glue and stamp your reason on my chest, it won't seep through, I will not rest.
I know you need, you want me too.
Believe that you could never do,
Fool me once, shame on you.
I'm nothing like you are used too,
I don't give in, to your mistakes.
I wont believe, that things have changed.
Until I see her walk away, without her evil smile, so happy that she's broken up, a love that measured miles.
Don't think I don't see the side, the culprit who burned your eyes,
I know it's hard to say goodbye but god-damn; you should always try.
To steer the course; solidify.
Your damaged, broken parts.
Keep the two best things she's given you and make a damn good start, on a brand new heart.
I hope that you will try, to reach those heights you never could, when she held you by her side.
I know it's hard to say goodbye, to need, to want, to even try, but you know that there is sunshine, after all the rain.
I know that you don't want to be, the reason, for my pain.
That's the good in you, wishing all my hurt away.
It's sometimes cruel to be so kind, to paint the blue in both our skies, to be the comfort before the storm, to hold our hands, to keep us warm. I don't mean to be so rude but she has never, deserved you.
I hope you learn that this is true, only I feel this way about losing you.
I hope that you remember me,
I was the light, you couldn't see.
The hardest fight was getting me.
To trust.
I raise you up on broken knees, I see your cuts, they just bleed.
There is no cloth, that stops the flood.
How can you not see what you have done.
You've torn him in two, you say you love...
But it's all for the glory of winning, against someone who is younger.
The jealousy you have is only for your plunder.
The golden coin, he can erase.
The secret fight, you don't partake. (Lies)
You only whisper hints, and we all know you just want the crown but never, the prince.
Don't you remember, all the tales from your princess dreams?
The evil queen never wins, she will always leave.
Her fault in thee, she can't compete, cause she could never love.
And once he's freed, he will see, she could never be enough.
It's sometimes cruel to be so kind, to look someone in their eyes and bring them back from the ground, make them see they have taken down, someone; they once called friend.
We all have ways, to find the line between greed and redemption.
So, I bide my time.
I say goodbye and wipe my tears away.
I know you will, find fault in fears, you'll see this from afar, I found a way to get to you, painting my blue sky with stars,
I'll meet you in the mountains, the purple sight I'm counting, on every twinkle flight
I'll wait for you to break away, and finally say goodbye.
I'll meet you here, in candlelight, once you have picked a side.
I'll meet you here, I'll wait for you, under the northern lights.